Im 26 living with my 24 lesbian friend. She joked who will get the most girls when we moved in. First month i had a couple first dates on tinder, she met 4 girls and hooked up with them. Month 2 I brought one girl home and we made out, but that was my first kiss ever.. and i prematurely finished so she left. My rm hooked up with a few more before getting her now girlfriend. I've been jealous and frustrated
We play truth or dare and they found out about me being a virgin. My rm and girlfriend laughed but "its cute you're so innocent". They gave me advice like im a teenager. Next 2 dates after that i felt so awkward and they left early. After that there was a day rm's girlfriend's friend Claire wanted to arm wrestle and i lost to all 3. she said i might be able to beat her 14 y/o sister. I started having nightmares arm wrestling her sister and struggling but she would get closer to winning i would regress to 14 and prepuberty. I got desperate and asked out some girls i known for a long time and all rejected some twice. I asked claire one night since we were drunk to hook up, she said sure whatever so i went to my room and took my clothes off, she said she was joking and i had a "cute little peepee". She told the other girls we hang out with and i got angrier and my nightmare was turning into an 6 y/o in front of her. Then i got one girl to come home with us but we ddnt do anything. we shared a bed i was so nervous i had an accident. i blamed it on her and it felt good for her to be embarrassed. i wish i could make all these other girls feel like that. I don't know if its guilt or still feeling humilated but my dreams are more and more that i regress and it effects me. I started nervous thumb sucking again (my mom bought me a pacifier..) and bedwetting when i hear my roommate having sex. im afraid ill lose it if they find out i have to wear diapers
how do i get out of this and get a girlfriend?
We play truth or dare and they found out about me being a virgin. My rm and girlfriend laughed but "its cute you're so innocent". They gave me advice like im a teenager. Next 2 dates after that i felt so awkward and they left early. After that there was a day rm's girlfriend's friend Claire wanted to arm wrestle and i lost to all 3. she said i might be able to beat her 14 y/o sister. I started having nightmares arm wrestling her sister and struggling but she would get closer to winning i would regress to 14 and prepuberty. I got desperate and asked out some girls i known for a long time and all rejected some twice. I asked claire one night since we were drunk to hook up, she said sure whatever so i went to my room and took my clothes off, she said she was joking and i had a "cute little peepee". She told the other girls we hang out with and i got angrier and my nightmare was turning into an 6 y/o in front of her. Then i got one girl to come home with us but we ddnt do anything. we shared a bed i was so nervous i had an accident. i blamed it on her and it felt good for her to be embarrassed. i wish i could make all these other girls feel like that. I don't know if its guilt or still feeling humilated but my dreams are more and more that i regress and it effects me. I started nervous thumb sucking again (my mom bought me a pacifier..) and bedwetting when i hear my roommate having sex. im afraid ill lose it if they find out i have to wear diapers
how do i get out of this and get a girlfriend?
