My friend sacrificed himself to do something for me. He really didn't need to do it but his selflessness made me love him. I told him that I want to be his friend forever and that I owe him big time and that I will be here for him forever. But I dont think my feelings for him are exactly romantic. I love him but I am not in love with him. It means I love him as: " I would wake up 4 am in the morning to cook breakfast for him before he goes to work daily" but I wouldn't miss him if I hadn't seen him in a week type of love. He doesn't make me laugh or give me an amazing time nor does he give me any butterflies in my stomach. He doesn't make me excited in his presence either. I've never cared about someone in my life so much.
But every time I meet up with him, I just admire him so much that I dream about how wonderful of an experience it would be to enjoy a kiss with him.
At this point, I am just confused on to pursue or not to pursue. So far I haven't said anything to him because I just am not sure of how I exactly feel. I definitely love him but maybe not in love. But its still so overwhelming of a feeling for me. I just want to hold his hand and kiss him.
