Will try to get this short.. I met this girl year ago online, we both live in different countries, we talked a lot, I initiated the most stuff, we both asked about each other, I started crushing her, one fine evening I told her how I felt and she said (I don't know what to say) with smiley face, well she still kept reaching out first, initiating and asking stuff, also telling me few times how she dreamed about me, so I thought she liked me as well, yet I was really confused but I kept going, I became too confused so I told her how I still feel the same and she said (I dont know what to say), I told her she can tell me later how she feels. That was a mistake I guess since there was no answer and I didn't want to ask again, well she became more dry texter now, I guess that was a sign? But like the dumb I am I didn't catch it, so I kept texting, probably too much now that I look back, well she still said how she dreamed about me couple times, so I thought there was a chance still. Well I was hurting mentally a lot, but I wanted to keep holding on the hope of us being together. Well now I'm sure of it how it is, she got a date couple weeks back I said I'm glad she found someone, since she is really lonely and depressed irl, I have lost some of the feelings now but they still keep coming back every now and then. I just dreamed of her and damn I'm down again, I'm so lost in this because I want to be her friend but also remove her from my life for the sake of my mental health but I dont want to hurt her. She has lost lots of people from her life so me leaving her would make her state worse because I can tell she still finds me as a good friend. Week ago she reached out asking how I am, we changed words, I told her I'm moving out next spring and she said she thought the same and would be cool to show our new apartments to each other... Right now I keep thinkig should I tell her goodbyes or stop contact and keep her on friend list, what should I do?
Remove her from my life or keep on going?
