I try so hard to be beautiful and just create a deeper connection than the other girl but no matter what I always lose. I could have been there before her or showed up when he really wanted someone and it never matters.
The other girl is always prettier, more well liked, and they’re always so infatuated with her. I just don’t get it, am I that discardable? Somehow I’m not enough to drop the other girls you’re talking to but the other girl deserves all your attention and you could never think of anyone else when she’s around?
It’s even worse when she rejects him and he comes running back to me like a rebound, it hurts and it happens over and over again. I’ve never once been chosen in my life, I’ve spent my whole life chasing near relationships with men who seem to like me until some other girl is there or shows up and I’m thrown out like cheap garbage.
I’ve never even had a boyfriend before for this exact reason. I’ve gotten to a point if I like a guy at all and even seen him with another girl at all I don’t care if they’re just friends there ruled out because the competition makes me feel sick.
People always say the right one will come along but that never happens, will I ever be chosen?
