Usually, I don’t feel intimidated other than before dates, on dates I usually feel comfortable or at least, act so.
But yesterday when I had a 2nd date with that man, I felt very shy, because he looked just so handsome, good looking, sophisticated, very high quality man I’ve seen in movies being with very beautiful women.
I was thinking he could pick any woman and she’d be with him and I was so nervous, I think my face gave it away 😅
I kissed him to make myself less nervous, because I wanted to ground myself that he was real.
I have dated men as handsome as him, I had a boyfriend like that too, but they weren’t as successful as he is and I was always thinking that we were equals, because at least I was at the same level of success as them.
But this time I felt like I was not all that good for him and he had model girlfriends, he had beautiful actress girlfriends and so on. He has lived his best life and what is something I can contribute to his life?
He’s definitely a lot more handsome than a monkey 🤣
I don’t know why I self sabotage things with handsome men, but seems like I do.