I’m 27, have never talked to a guy, a virgin and clueless on what I’m doing, so any input is appreciated. I’ve been talking to a guy long distance for a couple months now. He asked for my number a couple weeks ago and we’ve been texting daily. We’re supposed to meet next month. Tonight, I messed up.
He asked me if I’m ready to meet and I jokingly said no. He said we can always reschedule. I said I’m just nervous, so nervous that I haven’t built up the confidence to even call you lol. He told me I was going to be a 70 year old virgin. He asked me why I’m so nervous. I just am and it has nothing to do with him. He told me he worries about things when they actually happen, it might be awkward or we may have unrealistic expectations for our meetup and we just need to go with the flow. I tried to call him because I felt bad and wanted to apologize but it went to voicemail.
The reason I’m scared to meet him is because he’s out of my league and he can do better. I’ve lost over 100 pounds, my body is saggy, I have a huge belly/small butt, small hips, a bad body shape, etc. I’ve shown him a front view picture of my body and he finds me attractive, but I know he can still do better. I told him I was wearing shapewear and a good bra so it could be deceiving, but said he didn’t care. I’ve seen his ex-wife and there’s no comparison between her and I. She’s beautiful, curvy and I know I can’t be that for him. I’m just embarrassed being a 3/10 meeting a guy who’s a 10/10. He’s the most attractive guy I’ve seen and the only guy who’s shown romantic interest in me, but I know I just messed it up. It’s hard because I like him and enjoy talking to him, but I know my body is terrible and I’m simply embarrassed about it. Should I just call this off if he reaches out again?
