How do I not feel so desperate and disgusting?

The tech industry has taken a devastating hit. The software engineering space has been decimated. I would even say we are in a "silent depression" for tech workers and SWE's.

Web app developers and software devs in general were always well-respected and viewed as intelligent, capable people. Never would I imagined I would be facing job insecurity, even to the point of having to potentially default on my lease.

The Xiden administration and its disasters didn't help the situation.

I have a potential role down the pipeline, but I essentially had to stay on top of the employer and pretty much "beg" for progress in the candidacy process. I feel ashamed.

How do I not feel so desperate and disgusting?
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