Do you find it strange that I love a fictional character?

Is it weird that I love Marada Uchiha and want to actually be with him? he also has amazing leadership skills and is so strong and beautiful I love him, I have many art drawings of him and many pictures/figures and photos of Marada and I also write many original character stories of him, related to a mature audience, a lot of my stories would feature Madara being intimate with my original character or OC and of course the OC is me, but a lot of people like my stories so I continue to write on Wattpad about Marada and my OC, I'm guessing people like my stories since I have over 10,000 followers on my writing account, and many requests and emails for me to finish a story or chapter, so I'm actually booked with my Marada stories but it's because I put my passion/heart and soul into because I love Marada and what I'm really sad about, is that this isn't real and I'm really sad about it, because it breaks my heart, why can't it be real, why can't I be one with Marada and really marry him, I can't even marry him because he's not real and it's killing me, I just don't know what to do anymore, there's so many reasons why I love Marada, and I know in my heart if I were married to Madara I would make him so happy and he would be so loyal to me because there would be no one that compares to me. What should I do? I do not want a "real life" man I don't like them because I love Madara, I cannot bring Madara to life and I cannot unfortunately become an anime character to be with him... I'm honestly confused and heartbroken because I don't know if this is a problem, like I really don't know anymore *sighs*

Do you find it strange that I love a fictional character?
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I'm actually really nervous posting this
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You know what true love is? I learned the other day from watching The Nutcracker and the four realms movie, that true love is sacrifice so am I willing to sacrifice my own life for Marada YES because I love him and that is what true love is about, you may call it a fantasy but I know in my heart I love Marada.
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