I'm a 15 year old now

[Apulu_Imback]

Hey everyone, it's me, your Apple.

Alright this will be a depressing mytake.

My birthday is on 14th August. I was born in 2008. So right at this moment, it's 11:49 pm in India right now, a few minutes before I say bye to my 14 year old self.

I know I went ghost for a good number of weeks. Many of you must have even forgotten me. Actually my half yearly exams are going on, I went ghost for preparation of my exam but honestly, after all these events, I don't care what marks I'll get. I'm a topper in my class but I'm just too mentally exhausted to even care about grades.

While I was gone, I lost two really important people from my life. My paternal grandpa, the person I respected the most in my life. And my longest best friend, the only one who knew every details about me.

Remember her from my first ever novel? Nikita?

Yes she, she left the world on July 27th.

Passing away of grandpa is understandable, he was old, weak, in his late 80's.

Nikhita was a cheerful and active 16 yr old. Ambitious, optimistic, lovable. She died a really bad death, she was diagnosed with blood cancer at the age of 8 about which only her parents knew, even she didn't knew that she was suffering such deadly disease. She got a really bad blood clot inside her brain on Sunday, 23rd July. The surgery was successful however during blood transfusion she went into a coma.

This must be the most depressing birthday I'll be celebrating in my whole life. My life as a 14 yr old started with a great start, I accomplished so many things but lost half of my heart, Nikhita. I swear she was my soulmate, and she is.

I just want to say sorry to all of you. Sorry for being such an ungrateful brat. I'm sorry @Snowedln and @QuiteVerbena , I won't be continuing my novel 'Pierce my heart: A Grim reaper's love' . I don't think I can romanticize death now. Infact I can't romanticize anything nowadays. It'll take a lot of time to get into my artistic side. For now, I'm only writing quotes about my Nikhita, that pretty the nature looks now that she's a part of it.

It'll take a while to do anything with a stable and composed mind. I'm not that optimistic and cheerful lab I was, but I promise that I'll be that person once again. Just need time. Maybe a really long time but I'll surely become that same girl again.

Sorry for any grammatical mistakes, I'm not reviewing it, I just typed what I felt like.

I'm sorry for any inconvenience I ever created for you all in your life.

[crmoore]

We all appreciate your apology, it's a very considerate thing to do. But just know that it's unneeded. Everyone here who cares about you is okay with everything you're doing. We entirely understand you may need time to yourself, and we understand that hardships can impact our demeanor. None of us will hold that against you. Your behavior is entirely understandable.

And I'm truly sorry to hear about your losses. You already know the following, but sometimes. reinforcement can reassuring. There's a saying that goes "time heals all wounds." And it means that with time, the feelings you're feeling now will pass. That doesn't mean it will necessarily be quick, your time now may have some pain, but that pain one day will subside and things will get better.

But we all appreciate this post. It really goes to show how considerate and kind-hearted you are.

[Apulu_Imback]

Thanks a lot for understanding and respecting my behaviour, although it's not the one which people from my real life accepted. That's why I felt the need to apologise.

[crmoore]

You're welcome. And hopefully with time those in your real life will understand, too.

[Apulu_Imback]

I hope so.

[serious]

Hello, it is nice to hear from you. I totally understand and as usual it is very well written, irrespective to whether you have made grammatical mistakes or not.

I am sure you will be the person once again, I hope you are okay and recovering and take your time.

It is very nice of you to reach out to everyone you care about on GAG and updating us about the events.

[Apulu_Imback]

Yes, the only way to recover is to push myself out of my comfort zone and socialize with people when I don't feel like it.

[serious]

Good point.

[WhitneySnow]

You’re not an ungrateful brat. You’re an amazing person who’s suffered two really major losses. You need time to process. And you are a really good writer.

[Apulu_Imback]

Thanks for your sweet words.

[WhitneySnow]

You’re welcome

[Awantika03]

So sad you lost the two special persons, but i hope you will be strong 💪 and face that Hardships

[Apulu_Imback]

Of course I'll.

[MementoMori777]

My condolences for you losses, may they rest in peace and I hope you feel better soon 🙏🏽💯

[Apulu_Imback]

I hope so.