Me and what I consider my best friend have known each other for a decade now. But there’s been times where she’ll rotate who she talks or hangs out with the most (and it’s happened before, it’s yearly really), like she’ll go from calling me everyday for a few weeks and then the next I’ll only hear a text from her if anything on the weekend. I even feel that sometimes when we go out or go to festivals with groups of our friends she doesn’t really vibe with me, too nonchalant about my presence. Like if I pop up she doesn’t get as excited as she would with others. Yet, when she’s going through it (either a breakup or family/other friend issues) I’ll be the first she calls and we can talk for hours upon hours. We’ve even come to admire that and how we have our own sense of humor with just one another, she’s called me her best friend and I have as well. Currently she seems to hangout or have a better time with a friend of ours she can be bipolar about (who I adore by the way, she’s a sweetheart) they’re the same person but tend to clash and even stopped talking for a year back then over a guy. Which I end up hearing about and honestly, it just makes me think to my self “do you complain about me to your other friend?”. I just feel I’m too codependent though and i’m in a place in my life where I feel lonely and depressed, even while I go out and party or have my own long distance partner. Yea I have plenty of other friends, I just don’t know why im so emotionally attached and why I let this friendship effect me when it lacks at times. She knows so much about me though and I know so much of her. We share the same group of friends for the most part, which I met through her. I do want to maybe talk about it with her but I don’t want her to force her self to change or anything either if it’s not genuine. Or even possibly make out friendship awkward
Is my friend taking me for granted or is it just me?
