How can I stop feeling like an imposter?

[Anonymous]

I never learned social cues at a young age. I was a loner my whole life. I'm so close to getting everything I ever wanted. But when I'm around people, I feel so disconnected from them. Its like they're alien to me. I don't want to live like this.

I pretend to think people are funny because I don't want to kill their vibe. I started picking up my phone even when I don't feel like talking because I've been ducking everyone. I pretend like I think people's problems are as big a deal as they think they are. I always say to myself: I'd kill for your problems, I'd do anything to switch places with you.

But then I wonder if I only feel that way because I don't feel anything except empty.

[Sixgunsound]

Look up Alexithymia. You are almost describing it with textbook accuracy. There are more helpful suggestions online once you know what it is you are looking for.