How to refocus on my life? I think I’m falling into a depression subconsciously?

[Anonymous]

So I am 24 years old. Since the beginning of the year has been hell. I went on a trip and my whole family caught Covid from my cousin who knew he had it, and my mother died from it in hospital we were vaccinated but she still died from underlying conditions. I stopped culinary school do to Covid and my mom got sick when I was suppose to start school, My dads side had to move in with us because of kidnap and killing in their country and left everything behind. I got into a car accident last month. Now I have hernia disk. Car is totaled. I try to work from home but it’s seems like I’m always hungry and I can’t focus like I did before the beginning on the year. I sleep a lot now like around 5pm. I don’t feel like I am but my dreams have been violent lately like all the dreams seems like someone is trying to shoot me for the past couple weeks. My dad hasn’t been working either and my brother is depressed because he overworking because of my moms death so my dad lost motivation. We all keep having bad dreams of funerals and guns and it’s major stressed. Also we are all dealing with lawyers for our issues. My whole family is stressed and hurt and I don’t know how to get my life on track again. I was working in restaurant and in school. It’s been 5 months since all the drama unfolded. I don’t cry but I can focus either subconsciously. what should I do and what does this mean? Really I will like to move out to a new environment, because I have now a boyfriend I been seeing for a month and it’s probably the only good thing that happen to me this year. I’m happy I met him online because I was getting lonely. how long will it take for me to heal?

[AzSeEtsu]

I am so sorry for everything and even if I am not at your place, I can feel you my friend 😞 In life we have to go through so much unexpected things which make us depressed. And most of the time no one understands, everybody take it as a joke. Like "it will go" but they do not know what the person has inside, and we actually never heal. We just learn how to be strong. I went through a lot too these last years. I am 22 but I feel like I am over 50. 5 years ago when I was 17 and was already lonely and depressed (because I am a only child and my parents were already 50 years old and because of that they were never able to understand me), I found my boyfriend online, and believe me I was like god heard me, he saw my sadness and he helped me. I found the best man ever. It has been 5 years and we still talk hours everyday. But the problem is my parents. They don't want me to be with him. I went to see him in his country and when I came back my dad blackmailed me with a gun. I want to marry him. At the same time I have my education but because of my parents I am failing it because I can never concentrate on anything. Since a few months I even got depression. I can seriously feel you so much. Even I haven't lived the same I can relate with you.
And I would say be sure that the guy is good, once you are sure do not give up on your happiness for anybody.
And If you want to be friends you can send me a message 😇

[Sam_25]

Dude don't do relationship just bkoz you're lonely... make yourself busy in other things. Work more. Listen musics.

Make yourself busy in other things.

[Asker]

I really do like this guy but I do need people to talk to

[Sam_25]

I feel you girl. I'm in the same situation this year. Feel free to pm me whenever you need friend to talk.