I don't know what to do anymore?

[Anonymous]

I love my family don’t get me wrong but my family especially my mom pick favorites and I’m definitely not their favorite for multiple reasons but I’m not gonna go into full detail! Every time my twin brother comes over all eyes go on him and everyone ignores me they act like I’m not even there they act like I’m invisible! Even my family in Poland prefers my brother over me and when I go and tell one of my friends that something happened she tells me it’s going to be fine like it’s definitely not going to be fine! My family always wonders why I’m depressed and I tell them that maybe they’re the reason that I am how I am cuz they don’t pay any attention to me they never ask me how I am or how my day was it’s always about my brother! Recently in January my brother and his girlfriend had a baby and she’s super cute but it made my case of feeling invisible worse cuz everyone pays attention to her as they should cuz she’s cute but that’s not the worst part my mom prefers her own granddaughter over me she tells me that my niece is going to better things in life then I am! So I don't know what to do anymore cuz I’m just a disappointment to my family!

[aazzvv]

Fall in love with someone which eventually makes you a special person for him.

[Asker]

Expect no guy likes me

[aazzvv]

Don't think that way. Be optimistic. One day you will find someone very special.

I like you 😊.

[Asker]

I’ve been on bumble for 4 years and every time I go and talk to a guy he ends up blocking me I’m just being myself

[aazzvv]

You know the problem of this generation, they are looking for love desperately searching over all dating apps. But it doesn't work that way , Love happens suddenly to some stranger one day , and you don't even realize.

So just work on yourself and vibe alone until you get that moment.

[Asker]

I’m not desperate to find someone but I guess I’m single forever cuz knowing my city there’s literally no one nice guys here!

[aazzvv]

You are not desperate, that's good. You don't have to marry the guy from your own city. You can find nice guys in other cities and other countries too.

[Asker]

Ik I can but I don’t drive (seizures) so I can’t drive to another city and I don’t really leave my house since I have bad anxiety which will trigger my seizures

[aazzvv]

Sorry to hear that. But Love find it's way. You will find someone, don't worry.

[Asker]

I wish I could find a guy like my cat cuz my cat is so loving and affectionate!

[aazzvv]

You will. by the way I am falling for you :)

Jokes apart. But I can feel you are a kind girl.

[Asker]

I can be a bitch when I have to be

[aazzvv]

I find bitches more attractive.

[Asker]

I’m trying to listen to one of my favorite songs rn to try and distract me from all the bs going on but it’s not helping

[aazzvv]

Which song?

[Asker]

Somebody To Tell Me by Tyler Glenn

[aazzvv]

I listened it too. It's good actually.

[Asker]

It’s the theme song of one of my favorite shows

[aazzvv]

Got it.

[aazzvv]

Why do you like this show?

[Asker]

I wish I didn’t have anxiety/stress/seizures cuz then I could drive get a job and move the fuck out

[Asker]

It’s a good show

[aazzvv]

What happened to you for the seizure?

[Asker]

I never had seizures til I got to high school and they stuck around ever since (they’re not bad seizures they’re called petite mal seizures they make me black out for a few seconds and then I have a blaring headache) and they usually happen when I’m around my family

[aazzvv]

What doctor says on this?

[Asker]

Well my neurologist is shit so she helps with nothing and my regular doctor is shit as well and he helps with nothing as well I would get new doctors but no one else takes my insurance and if they do take my insurance they don’t take new patients

[aazzvv]

Don't overthink. Don't stressed out.
Doctors are not God, they don't even know 100%.
Avoid junk foods, eat only healthy foods , do some light exercises, meditate, listen positive things only.

[aazzvv]

No one never knows when they gonna die , right? So why to worry.

[aazzvv]

How many days we live , we should live to the fullest. That's my philosophy of life.

[Asker]

I have a headache now

[aazzvv]

I hope I am not the reason for your headache.

[Asker]

No it’s my mom

[aazzvv]

What is she saying?

[Asker]

Yelling at me cuz I don’t wanna see my brother today like she can go to his apartment he doesn’t have to come here! This is why I wish I could drive cuz I’d get in my car rn and go for a drive

[aazzvv]

Where do you wanna go for a drive?

[Asker]

Country roads

[aazzvv]

I think you love travelling.

[Asker]

I mean I do but I don't know

[aazzvv]

by the way I love travelling, although I have not traveled that much..

But you one day , I wanna travel the whole world.

Do you wanna join me travelling? 😊

[Asker]

I don't know! I want to go back to Poland but I’m terrified of flying!

[aazzvv]

I already told you , don't hold yourself back because of that anxiety and all that..

Just live your dreams. YOLO.

[Asker]

Oh I’m just terrified of heights

[aazzvv]

You know I wanna do skydiving once. I don't know how I gonna feel at that moment. But I wanna do at least once in my life.

[Asker]

I wanna swim with sharks

[aazzvv]

But that I can't do.

[Asker]

Sharks are cute

[aazzvv]

Yeah.

[aazzvv]

Tell me about your hobbies.

[Asker]

Well I love cooking, baking, and singing (even tho I suck at singing)

[aazzvv]

Many of us like singing but we are terrible at it.

[Asker]

True

[aazzvv]

Are you single?

[Asker]

Yes sadly but sometimes I’m ok with it

[aazzvv]

Have you been single through your whole life?

[Asker]

Yes but oh well

[aazzvv]

Same here.

[Asker]

At least I won’t have my heart broken

[aazzvv]

Scared of love?

[Asker]

No just scared that the guy will just want to use me

[aazzvv]

Yeah. Love is cheap now because of free sex.

[aazzvv]

Finding a good person is quite difficult these days.

[Asker]

Yup!! That’s all that it is

[aazzvv]

First of all , loyalty, commitment and love is important, right? Sex is secondary.

[Asker]

I’m the type of person that wants to meet the right guy get married and then have sex! This is why no guy likes me cuz I tell them that I don’t want to how sex with them

[aazzvv]

Exactly.

[Asker]

Like once a guy completely ignored my question on bumble and asked if I wanted to have sex

[aazzvv]

Is there anyway to message in private? Coz it's getting serious.

[Asker]

Well I’d need a higher Xper level

[aazzvv]

No problem.

[Asker]

I’m cold

[aazzvv]

Why?

[Asker]

I don't know I get cold easily

[aazzvv]

You should relocate to the middle eastern region.

[Asker]

I live in the Midwest 😂

[aazzvv]

Which country by the way?

[Asker]

United States

[aazzvv]

Great.

[Asker]

I kinda hate it here but whatever

[aazzvv]

Why do you hate?

[Asker]

It’s supposed to be a free country but it’s not as free as you think

[aazzvv]

Capitalism.

[Asker]

Yes and also different political parties fighting with each other

[aazzvv]

Every country has its own set of problems.

[aazzvv]

You should feel lucky that at least you are the citizen of the economic superpower.

[Asker]

I wish I could live in Hawaii cuz that’s what I need rn relaxation

[aazzvv]

I know for sure , you need a vacation rn..

[aazzvv]

Go and travel. What's holding you?

[aazzvv]

Now the travel also has been easy.

[Asker]

I’m broke

[aazzvv]

You need to do a job , then.

[Asker]

Except I have social anxiety which really does not help my case in getting a job

[aazzvv]

But you have to do it anyway , right?

[Asker]

Well I don’t have to

[aazzvv]

How much you have done in acedemics?

[aazzvv]

I don't have to, why?

[aazzvv]

*you