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I don't know what to do anymore?

My boyfriend was kidnapped by his family from me nearly two years ago. First love and I’ve been hurting deeply every single day. Promising to come back and we’ll get married. They’ve got him engaged but whatever I cba to think about it rn cause I’m drained. I haven’t worked in over a year. Left university the second I found out he was engaged. Sit in my room alone everyday. Had to force myself to stop smoking cannabis as my asthma has gotten so bad from it. Feeling helpless. Don’t have the intention to ever work again as that drains me more than anything in this world and especially when I feel this down I just couldn’t care about work at all. I just want to be financially free. It’s on my mind every day to be financially free. I feel like I’m hooking onto him bcos he helps with money and I’m just still convinced he’s my prince and don’t think I will ever move on. I just want money. Just to get my own house just so I can feel some sort of home and safety. My dad messaged my underage friend on my mums bday (cheating on her) and that’s the same time my boyfriend got moved away. Dads weird and on drugs and the most racist nastiest negative draining human ever. (Forced to live with him) also can be weird when on drugs making me feel sick to be in this house. Mum won’t let me move with her. Kicked me out and too busy with her own life. No friends really. Just drained I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do anymore?
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