My dad got diagnosed with an aggressive form of prostate cancer. I love both my parents so much so I just can’t handle this.
it is 2am and I am crying all alone just so overwhelmed meanwhile I have work in 4 hours from now so I’ll be a complete zombie. I’m just so worried about him and terrified of losing him. I have a girl I am marrying next year.. I love her but the idea of living on this planet without my parents makes me want to kill myself.
i am almost 30 years old but can’t imagine living without them. I talk to them about everything and honestly sort of live for them. I mean what really else is there in life if you don’t have your parents.
I’ve been getting by some days by pretending everything will be alright but I know I’m lying to myself.
I miss the younger days man.. I miss being a kid and having my dad drive me to every soccer game in the summer and every hockey game in the winter. He was my biggest fan and never missed a game or practice.. he enjoyed way watching me play more than anything. Having my mom cheer my name from the stands.. I can’t believe all these days are gone. My father waking me up at 6am on a Saturday because the games were early as hell.. I was so tired and wanted to sleep sometimes lol but he would get me up and he was happy and excited as we would drive down to the arena.. grab a nice coffee on the way up. There’s so many endless memories throughout all of life with them but just shared one that sits close in my heart
i remember my dad taking me on a college tour when I was applying to the same college that he went to in his younger days. These moments were amazing.
I just can’t believe how fast time goes and how we can never get these days back. It’s bitter sweet. Makes me smile looking back but hurts from missing these days. what scares me the most is I don’t know what I believe in after this life.. but the possibility of never meeting with my parents again is enough to make my brain explode in pain
