Am I a bad person for feeling relieved when my dog died?

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My dog passed away about 5 years ago at 4 years old. She was put under to have some mast cell tumors removed, and she never woke up. When I got the call from the vet about my dogs death, I was the most relieved I've been in my entire life. I made sure she had a good life, and that she felt loved, but it was a pain in the ass, because I had to worry about where I was gonna leave her when I went out of town. She was also just a very energetic dog, and I was the complete opposite. She would chew up things around the house. I realize this was my fault, because i didn't train her properly I'll be honest, sometimes a part of me wishes she was still here. Just a tiny bit, but most of me is glad she's gone. I often dream that she's still here, and I wake up thinking "thank God. It was just a dream". I don't know, that's just how I feel? Am i a terrible person?

Am I a bad person for feeling relieved when my dog died?
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