My toxic family is ruining my life?

[Anonymous]

Hey, I'm here to rant & If you go through something similar know that you're not alone. I'm 21 and I currently live with my mother & her mom my grandmother (my father is not in the picture). They're both narcissistic and make my life living hell. I live in a depressing home, full of negativity and even If i breathe wrong I get called horrible names by my grandmother, she insults me, keeps telling me that I'll never finish uni because I'm a psychopath with no skills. Keep in mind I don't do anything to deserve this kind of treatment. Bc of my mom's controlling nature I also never got to get close friends, so i just talk to a few people from uni. This has been happening for a few years now but there are days when It gets super bad. I get insulted so often that my self esteem got really low. Because of what I've been going through I've isolated myself and I never feel happy at home, ever. I'm also gray rocking with them at home and never speak with them unless spoken to. Its overall a very toxic environment that I'm in and currently have no escape. I have 3 years left of uni and I'm pushing myself so hard to study and stay sane at the same time. My health is spiraling and I don't know what I did to deserve this. If anyone went through something similar I hope it got better for you.

tl;dr: im coping with toxic family and there is no escape.

[MemeSupreme]

yeah i get it like those two know exactly what buttons to push and can piss you off like no other so easily

i think it helped me growing up finding escapes to distract me like family, games, and some other stuff. you gotta find what helps connect you to others bc isolation does the opposite. if it gets too much then you might have to put uni on hold and try to move out some way

ik those aren't the best solutions and you probably thought about them before, but my only way was literally moving out

[boggboss]

Try to reconnect with friends and spend as much time with them or outside your house as possible such as the uni library as for what u did to deserve this nothing world isn't fair has nothing to do with u has too with being unlucky and being born into that family

[Danny_dan92]

Move out