Am I a bad friend for never messaging people on Discord?

[Anonymous]

I have a habit of making friends but like when I add them on a platform like discord, I barely speak to them sometimes for a year..

I wanna speak but like I am afraid of like people might react to the messages like why are you messaging me, or like why doesn't she say more or even worse.

I do have autism if that matters.

[Ez-Bri-Z_v2]

Omg are you me?

Lol I have the same freaking issue where I REALLY want to just reach out, but I feel like a burden to people when I do, like I am making them feel obligated to respond when I do reach out.

I don't believe I have autism, just social anxiety and, well, lots of anxiety in general.

Most of my friends understand this about me, but I have lost some I was really close to because of it. They tried to make their case that I wasn't reaching out enough and it felt one sided, but I was always super happy when they did reach out and couldn't bring myself to be a burden on them. In the end, I guess I was a burden either way.

Anyway, I don't think it makes you a bad friend or even a forgetful one. It wouldn't make you a bad friend if you had any other sort of disability that made contact hard, would it?

[jahaims]

Speaking a few times a year isn't friendship