I had honestly gotten over the preceding girl and gotten okay with the idea that I'll be forever alone. But, then I met her. And I told her if she gave me a no to all the the things I say to her and all the beautiful remarks and stuff I'd respect the boundary and just be friends.
But I kinda realized I can't do that. We talked today and I just realized that it's been eating at me since she told me no. Especially knowing that I'm talking to someone who will never feel the way about me that I do about her. I just can't do it anymore. I'd rather be alone than keep feeling this way.
So I blocked her. On all of the platforms we used.
I can't even really say anything to her, I mean there's nothing left to say. I know I said I could be friends but I can't. I just blocked her. I just want to move forward. I'm tired of falling for women and never having it reciprocated and knowing that no one will ever love me or desire me the way I do someone else.
Hearing that I'm "great boyfriend material" but not enough for anyone to give a chance to even once. And I'm 24. I'm not the kid I was and no one will ever really see me. I don't really believe anyone can love me anyway. I feel bad about it. She doesn't owe me, but I don't owe her either. She's gonna wake up in the morning when she leaves the hospital (she was in for vertigo and such) and go to text me and I won't be there anymore. But I just can't do it.