She completely cut me out of her life, but will the only girl I've ever truly loved come around eventually?

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Me and my ex girlfriend dated for 4 years. We were so comfortable with each other and we pretty much had a perfect relationship. We broke up about 4 months ago and it was quite a bad breakup. She has completely cut me out of her life and it appears that she has no problem dealing with this. I contacted her about a month ago, simply giving her my blessing and telling her that I understand why we can't be together, but that I at least wanted to be on decent terms. She responded very coldly, telling me that she didn't want anything to do with me, that she was doing fine, and that "maybe someday we would be OK, but not now". I miss her like crazy and I know that we wouldn't work as a couple, which is alright with me. I just can't completely disown her like we have no history, and she seems to have no problem doing this... I can confidently say that I loved her and honestly, I still do, because love to me isn't something that can be controlled at will just because I'm angry with someone or because they decide they don't want to date me anymore. She loved me too, I know this for a fact, I could just feel it and I know that there's no faking what we had, but now it really seems like she would rather be enemies and live a life that I'm completely excluded from in every way, shape and form. It's created a huge hole in my life where 'we' used to be. This breakup has completely uprooted so much more than just a girlfriend because our lives really did begin to merge over those four years we were together. Do you really think she's as unaffected by this breakup as she acts like she is? Does she really not want me in her life at all forever, or do you think she just acted like that when I tried to contact her because it made the breakup easier to deal with at the time? Should I try to contact her sometime in the future and see if we can at least be friends? If so, how long should I wait?
She completely cut me out of her life, but will the only girl I've ever truly loved come around eventually?
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