Okay so here's the rundown: I have a crush on my friend, I met her when we were in university and now we live together (platonically). During university, she would always encourage me to put myself out there and meet a great guy (I am bisexual, and she says this all the time because she knows I'm more into men (unfortunately, sorry guys)). I would throw out hints that I like girls too, and that she was my type. But when she would low-key flirt, I'd freeze. And she would poke my butt whenever it was close (for example, going up some stairs and she'd be behind me). Fast forward, we now live together after graduation, during the summer and since move-in, I have been trying to get over her and put myself into the dating pool (especially bc I want her more as a friend, feel like a relationship would ruin it). But then I get delulu over the smallest things that she does. But here's the biggest one (or two), I got on this dating app (which was her idea), matched with a few guys, then told her about this one guy I'm talking to, that I was really clicking with, but that I had some concerns, and she saw them as red flags, started mildly freaking out, and telling me to block him because she was worried about me, but I wanted to give the guy a chance. So then, I showed her our messages and she was like absolutely not and took my phone and blocked him. I unblocked him the same night but things haven't been the same between me and the guy. The second thing is that we come home from a party last week and her boo is waiting for her (yes she has a boo, and I'm sort of friends with her too, but you get it) anyways, after we wrap up things downstairs, we come up and right as we reach the top she slaps my butt twice while her boo is lying in her bed. I'm okay with it but I just never know what to say because I know she doesn't like me, (all our friends think otherwise), but doing that while her boo was there made me feel awkward. What do I do? Flirt, be more platonically friendly, etc?
I LIVE WITH MY CRUSH, HELP?
