Recently lockdown lifted, so a week ago, I grew a pair and asked her if she'd like to go on a date. She rejected saying we're just friends and that's all she see. I decided to accept it gracefully. I mean we're friends and I do like that. However, she texts me every day and night even more. I kept the conversation going any few days after that on the weekend is her birthday I brought up the birthday but noticed she flinched, so I quickly decided to mention I had weekend get away plans. I mean let's face it I really liked the girl and space is good for me. I did notice her ease up and stuff. She was texting me more. Then the weekend of the birthday came. I noticed her being uncomfy about me going away, scratches head.
Anyway the day I was supposed to go noticed her pull away and that's fine she's a friend right? Unfortunately shit happened (I don't know sign of universe maybe) and I couldn't go. So I texted her in the afternoon trips cancelled. I was aware she was going to get something from work but I removed myself from being in charge, cus I saw the sexual tension there. Anyway I checked up on her gift receipt and told her my trip got cancelled. She was genuinely surprised as she was thinking Id be gone. I was like I'm fine I got this making other plans, you have fun. Next day asked her about her birthday wishes her showed a bit of excitement, but nothing crazy.
I keep pondering should I have asked her out again even after being shot down a week ago? Or did I do the right thing by making some space and boundaries, I mean let's face it I'm not entirely free and she's just a friend, nothing special.
I also thought at the end of the weekend, look this is not going anywhere, got better things to do.