I liked this girl for 2 years and as I changed jobs got closer to her. She was pulling away a few weeks ago so asked her, what's up. She admitted she feels discomfort at this. So I said it's fine I like you happy to be friends. If not all g her choice.
She dragged on the same Convo for a few days and said she wouldn't be friends. I maintained the same line that I liked you but you can go and we can be friends if you ever think about it. And that I respect her choice. I also asked why is she still pushing me to admit I still like her.
And after saying bye she came back the next day. Saying we can be friends. I was confused so I asked her what kind of friends as you've been pretty confusing and stuff. Told her well I liked you but not in love with you so that's fine.
She went quiet so middle of the week just said hey if your uncomfortable totally cool do r have to do this.
Next few days things were normal between us.
And over the weekend she was quiet and I was reflecting on my behaviour that I could've not dragged it and been a bit cooler accepting of what she texted.
I usually on a Sunday sit on a park bench and reflect my thoughts. While copying my texts from her I accidentally post it to her what'sapp 😂😂. She confronted me as she can see Im sharing things with others. And she thinks I'm dwelling and overthinking.
I told her the truth that Sundays I sit on a bench and reflect my actions towards others and I practice on what I can do better. I'm not sharing with anyone. She then said lol okay no problem.
I then said, use one of my exs who blocked me years ago on chat for a notepad and storing writing stuff, just organizing how I should've behaved and do better at things. Just reflect on my feelings. I feel so embarrassed.
Im just so embarrassed, help me. 🥺🥺🥺
