Stop caring about the outcome.
Right now you are spending most of your energy telling yourself what a failure you are and looking at all of your problems and deciding that there can only be a negative outcome but the truth of the matter is that you are manifesting your negative outcome.
You can only do whatever you can do, you just take one step at a time.
Stop destroying yourself with all this crap you are thinking about.
You have completely overloaded and burnt yourself out.
Stop trying to control everything. Stop trying to be perfect or assuming everyone else is perfect and comparing yourself to people who don't exist.
You are in college right now, so do that, just do the best you can do at the time. Some days that will be better than other days, submitting anything, ANYTHING is objectively vastly superiour to not submitting anything because you aren't even sleeping.
If you had to travel 500 miles on foot there is no point in sprinting off up the road without even putting your shoes on and then collapsing after a short time with loads of blisters on your feet.
Get your fucking shit together, look after yourself and then make whatever progress you can, whatever happens is what happens and this becomes the tapestry of your life, stop trying to forcing it you have control over nothing, you are worrying yourself sick over this tiny handful of variables of which you are vaguely aware when there are a hundreds fucking variables determining the outcome of your life most of which you cannot even percieve.
Our lives can change in an instant just through a chance meeting with someone, you can't plan for that.
So stop fucking killing yourself and just calm down and just try and put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forwards as best you can and enjoy yourself for God's sake, these are the days of your life here, haven't you noticed how beautiful the sunset is?
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You just have to keep struggling to move ahead. Simplistic but real and true. Keep trying and you'll break through and it will get better. You'll look back on this and see how much stronger you've become.
I know it sucks, just don't quit.
I am here as well. People say therapy helps. Then there are antidepressants. Lifestyle changes and so on. Honestly I am nit sure myself anymore. My depression seems to get worse everyday. I'm either sleeping all the time or not at all for days at a time. It is exhausting.
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Start small. Start with things you can take control of. Like with your clothes and room etc. Arrange it without getting distracted by other things in your life. You need small victories. So take charge of smaller things like this. Once your room is arranged, get into a schedule. Do each task without getting distracted by the other task. Focus on the process and not worry about consequences. The right process will always give you the right results
I think you need a professional sorry about that
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