How does it feel to be desired by a s.o.?

[Anonymous]

I've never been extremely and fully desired. How does it feel? I'd love to feel that...to be wanted fully and wholesomely...how does it feel? I want a boyfriend to love me and care about me but that hasn't happened and doesn't look as if it will any time soon. I just want to know how it feels to have someone desire you so much? Because I don't think or feel as if any guy desires me...like really desires me. *sigh.* So?

[Agripa23]

I don't exactly know how it feel to be desired, but I do know how it feels to desire someone. I've been with my girlfriend for close to three years now, and still to this day I'm nervous/excited around her. Like I can go all day at work completely focus on my job, but as soon as she pops into my head or sends me a text or calls me on my break. Its like I lose it, like I get this like hunger pain in my stomach, my mouth starts to water, its hard for me to get focus back on work. In the worse moments my hands shake, my throat tries to like close up on me, and thinking about anything else but her is nearly impossible(but those moments typically only happen when she sends me a dirty text hahaha). Then as soon as I can actually see her I calm down a bit, and touching her helps calm me down even more but that craving is still there, just toned down a bit. I've never told her about any of this due to it sounding completely crazy but she knows I truly love her and would do absolutely anything for her. So don't worry you'll find someone that just can't get enough of you ha ha just give it time.

[Asker]

Aw..that was cute..thanks for sharing. :) And thanks...I hope I find that special someone sooner rather than later. But what do you mean you don't feel desired though? Judging by your comment..she must love you as much as you love her..right? She must desire you if she's with you...or is she uber shy or something? and doesn't show the desire? you confused me there..haha.

[Agripa23]

I grew up in a different world than most. Things you wanted the most, you could never keep. In my world some people are born just not good enough, and that's how they'll remain. Its hard to explain but in away I don't allow myself to feel those things you seek. It'll only lead to being crushed once again, and having to face the truth. I'm just not good enough. Its hard for me to believe that she's truly with me, for me. I feel like if I were to open up to her, things would just fall apart.

[Agripa23]

Its a risk I'm not willing to take. I'm truly happy with her but its like that little voice in my head keeps telling me "she's to good for you, she's going to realize it soon". So for now I'm just making every time I'm with her count.

[Asker]

Hmm..well I hope you realize that is not the way to live...regardless of if you think she is too good for you or not..things always happen and change. So why not be positive? Live in the moment. You should be equal with the person you love..you shouldn't think they are better than you...she may sense this and this can cause tension..just be happy and love her and live in the now..not in the maybe. good luck. :) I'm happy for you that you are happy with this girl. :)