You Make Me So Confused

[Queen_Queen]

Dear X.

You confuse me. All the time, maybe I'm the one confusing myself because, you are my first crush, but either way, I am confused and It's extremely frustrating. At first, I didn't wanna believe it, because I never really liked a guy before - or took my time to like one, but when I did, I REALLY didn't wanna believe it, but I learned to accept it. When you found out, when mostly everyone found out.. I thought that hell had opened it's gates.

You always stare, from the across the room and remove your gaze when you notice that I see, I do the same to you too, I guess this is a "game" of some sorts. You always tease me. Sometimes it's hurtful and I have no idea if you notice. You always bring your head down when you realize I'm next to you. You usually always smile when I talk to you. Lately, you've even learned to accept it.

And even though you've said that "I'm not your type." I still don't believe that. Yeah, I may properly in the process of being in love with you, but, I try to be your friend more, because I know, that when the time comes for us to be graduated at the end of high school, and we all go on our separate ways. Will I still see you again? Will we communicate on Facebook, even though I'm scared as fuck to add you. Will we remain friends or something more? I don't know, because sometimes, I feel like you don't want anyone to know that you may start to have feelings.. sometimes, I wonder. I wonder all the time, why do you confuse me?

[Ximfigos]

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