I’m an over thinker. This happened between me and my boyfriend once and it’s still bugging me?

[Anonymous]

So, I tend to over think. I have this fear of being abused, even though my relationship is not abusive. My boyfriend is a great guy, we both have our flaws but love each other and stand by eachother. I’ve been dating him for 3 years and am going to therapy. My therapist tells me “no, You’re relationship is not abusive.” Even though I ask him every once in a while. I’ve told him (my therapist) every little thing that has happened between me and my boyfriend, and he still stands by what he says, mostly bc he also knows my boyfriend as a person and patient. He even knows about what I’m going to share rn, but I still wanted to get an outside opinion. So we were in a beach house once and were sleeping on a mattress on the floor. I’d been up for longer, (he recently had waken up) and was still a bit groggy. I then crawled across the mattress, reaching out for my laptop that was on the couch next to us, and I accidentally was resting my knee weight on my boyfriend’s thigh skin. He went “oww” and then proceeded to make contact with his foot on my boob. It was by no means a kick (didn’t hurt either) but it also wasn’t a touch or nudge. I could still feel the touch of his foot afterwards. It wasn’t pain at all, more like a phantom touch, as if the sensation was still there. I don't know, I saw it as something mean so maybe my state of mind was influencing. I told him that he did that on my boob and he responded “I know.” Looking upset. After a while we talked about it and he mentioned it was kind of a reflex because of the pain. He wanted me off his thigh and he reacted that way. He said he would never do something to hurt me, even less intentionally, so it kind of slid off the radar after. My ocd has been flaring up lately and my mind has been bringing up bad memories, this is one of them. I just hear my brain going “he hit you.” But... he really didn’t. It’s just really stressing me out and I don’t want to think of my relationship as abusive over that moment.

[ZackBan]

Since you're already in therapy I don't wanna recommend stuff that your therapist might contradict me with but I do have an idea.
Look up online what abusive relationships look like. It might be scary but it will give you perspective, by comparison you'll realize just how not abusive your relationship is.

[In_Trance]

So what's the actual question here? Are you overthinking?
You're thinking... clearly. Unless you're gonna do something with all of this, it's overthinking

[dwiller943]

Have you been abused in any previous relationships,
been bbused by a relative during your childhood,
or witnessed a relative being abused while you growing up?
Because sometimes stuff like that can cause people to overthink things
and be a bit too paranoid about their partners.

[MillenniumBill]

Sounds like you're so content with your relationship that you're almost waiting for something to go "wrong". Like, it's just a matter of time before your boyfriend "snaps" or something.

[Avicenna]

You need to see things clearly but also be comfortable with your boyfriend.

[KrakenAttackin]

I bet you are physically gorgeous because your crazy meter is pegged.

Your boyfriend will eventually get tired of this dumb shit and move on.

[Iron_Man]

Keep going to therapy

[Asker]

Sure, any reason though?

[Iron_Man]

For the abuse and your thoughts now about it

[Asker]

So, you think it was abuse?

[Iron_Man]

Do you guys have sex?

[Asker]

Um... yes, but I don’t see why that has anything to do with this situation, why?

[Iron_Man]

Then it wasn't abuse

[Iron_Man]

You just being playful

[Iron_Man]

He's