Too many coincidences or what? or am I going bonkers? why can't I forget this guy!?

Anonymous
So there's this guy I liked Id say like a year ago. And here's the long but honest truth to my madness...OK so one day out of boredom I decided to try a I guess you could say "dating site" and I saw a pic of this guy who I found cute. Looked at his profile, had what all I was looking for and most importantly was single and with no kids! hello...ding ding ding! (not that people who have kids are bad but I'm young and not ready for the babies yet). Me being shy it took me like forever to write him but when I did, made a complete dumb ass of myself and he never wrote me back. After my heartbreak (here's the weird part I guess I fell in love with him, a stranger! , he was like my dream guy.) I tried to forget him but couldn't...and trust me I tried! It took months and tons of prayers but after I found my now ex and things were good because forgot about my crush. [Which my ex knew that I had a serious crush on this guy way before he stepped into the picture.] Up until me and my ex would have problems that's when I would remember my crush and the "if I would have gotten the chance to be with _____ instead of you, things would've been different) & since my feelings for my crush were just put on the back burner and weren't gone gone. I went back to secretly wanting my crush again! during my "relationship" I guess you could say I started going all little off of what's normal to me. I turned into an internet detective lol, trying to find out if there was a Facebook or MySpace and what was on it etc. Please don't judge me I was in love with the guy and no matter what I did I couldn't get him out of my head! So I did my little P.I. work and found the shock of my life, coinky dink 1&2 not only did he live where I use to live up North (same neighborhood) he was now living really close to where I currently live now Down South (like 3 hrs away!). I mean damn out of all the places he could've gone in the whole US, really 3hrs away from me!? so coinky dink 3, on fb one of my friends was friends with his ex-gf which was too weird for me. coinky dink 4 Id keep bumping into people with his name every damn where, like wth. and last coinky dink...I keep dreaming about him. Its damn weird, I feel like I'm going insane...this has never happened to me, I have always had the amazing ability to forget guys who have hurt me and find something else better. but so why can't I forget this one?
Too many coincidences or what? or am I going bonkers? why can't I forget this guy!?
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