My boyfriend took his life. what should I do?

[Anonymous]

My boyfriend committed suicide on the 7th of this month. He had been battling depression for years. He took medication and went to therapy. But then he started doing a lot more schoolwork and taking more majors that didn't leave him time to go to therapy during the day. It had been two months since he was only on medication. He seemed to be doing well. I was concerned sometimes because he would still have his down days but that's to be expected with depression. I just wish I could have seen this coming.

He has been suicidal before. those times i calmed him down and we could talk about it. But not this time. One day he sent me text saying he couldnt go on.

I knew what he meant so i called the police. i went up onto the roof and sure enough, he was there. I started yelling for him to come inside but he wouldn't. Then i took matters into my own hands. he was about to jump so grabbed him and wrestled him to the ground. but he got up after a while. then he went to the side of the roof right as jumped i grabbed him. i told to come to grab onto and climb up. he refused. If i held him longer i would have fell. I had to let him go. The last thing he was "I'm sorry love. I wish you could have stopped me." Those words will forever be engraved in my memory.

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I will always miss you. R. I. P. Karl.

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Also forgot to mention, he was going to propose on Friday. I was looking really forward to this.

[Luckycharms12]

Sorry for your loss. some times people just can't cope and take there lives it's horrible we always have questions but never no why. Right now you be grieving which is perfectly natural just mind yourself and speak to friends and family they will help you true this hard time.

[SamIam96]

I'm so sorry for the pain, emptiness and loss you're experiencing. I hope you get some comfort from knowing he truly loved you and from remembering the good times you enjoyed together.

For both of you, I hope Karl's in a better place and is no longer suffering.

[SamIam96]

You asked what to do...

Try to spend time with friends. Tell Karl's story. It's hard, but try to look forward and be open to meeting new people. You will never replace what you had, someday you'll find happiness with someone new.

[SamIam96]

please DM me

[Asker]

on what platform

[Asker]

Sorry. i meant what website/ app

[SamIam96]

here is best

[RangerBlue22]

I am so sorry for this. This is inexplicable.

You really need the support of your friends and family right now. Just remember this was HIS decision and you did all you could to support and prevent this. If someone really wants to move forward with taking their own life there is little most people can do to stop it. But you did do all you could.

[melanieeeB]

I'm really sorry!

Personally I think you should give yourself time and grieve, deal with your emotions, be aware that this wasn't your fault or whatever in this direction and maybe also get some professional support for a while (therapist mostly have great advice on how to deal with difficulties)

[Staximus]

If this is not a troll post, he should have never done that to you. He should have cared more about you than that, and not subjected you to that situation. He was mentally weak and you should have left him at the first sign of that. You need to be strong and continue living your life. Selfish people who only think about themselves never think about how others feel. They will drag you down into a mental hell with them and ruin your life along with theirs, but you don't have to let them.

[Asker]

Please dont say that. if anyone was selfish it was me. I was always harsh on him and yelled at him for things he couldn't help. I wish i was nicer to him. he was always nice to me.

[Staximus]

What he did to you and what he did in front of you what the most inconsiderate and inexcusable thing ever. I am trying to be nice here, I have some much worse things to say about him.

[Asker]

Like what?

[Staximus]

I'm not going to say it, it's not going to make you feel any better and I don't want to make you feel any worse.

[Steamnir]

Move on with your life, its not your business, get a new boyfriend and enjoy life

[TonightYouu]

Men don’t receive the emotional support and encouragement that women do there are many Karl’s in the world

[MiseriaCantareAFI]

How do you know he was going to propose, did he say something?

[Asker]

Yes. he had been planning it for a while

[MiseriaCantareAFI]

he literally told you, he was going to propose, or you just got the feeling he was going to?

Cause, why would he tell you he was going to, doesn't that ruin the surprise?

[Asker]

He bought a ring a bit and said he was going to around then. he kept the exact time and place a surprise though.

[MiseriaCantareAFI]

So you knew he was going to, that ruins the surprise

how do you know he bought a ring?

[Asker]

accidently found it in the nightstand and asked him what it was

[Asker]

then he told me

[MiseriaCantareAFI]

God he's a dumbass

[MiseriaCantareAFI]

How did you "accidentally" find it

[boobliker]

get on with yours enjoy what ever you have left and put him behind you

[Anonymous]

Say a prayer for his soul, and don't think your the reason or cause of his death.

[boggboss]

All u can do is grieve and slowly try to move on

[Asker]

Thank you. I think it will take some time.

[sunflower00]

I’m so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you x

[BobbieBoy666]

Sorry. 😢

[Anonymous]

but you did try to stop him it's not your fault