I don't know if im acting weird or fantasizing?

oksaly

So i went to MUN contest , it was in another city and this guy in my committee was from a different city too, i stopped believing in love in sense of emotions at that point (just turned 18) and when i saw him it was so unbelievable he seemed like a movie star i couldn't put my eyes off and kept looing, beautiful guys are high in game and not up emotionally so i ignored and to my surprise he started looking at me during all sessions, when i first did speech he sent me appreciation chit i thought i was being dreamy so i took it casually but he was looking at me, let me tell u he is in 9th grade and im in 12 th so i hesitated coz i thought i was overthinking i looked down when he would look at me coz i didn't want to be like rest of girls that were asking for his insta he was around me always , once i was talking in group he came and stood SO FREAKING CLOSE TO ME and was looking at me form corner of eye and i became quiet and scared OF FALLING IN LOVE OR BEING PLAYED but he was so gentle with his love i still doubt im dreaming , he asked me to join his team and i asked him to add my points too and he was like yeah write whatever you want with the biggest smile the way he said hey come , follow me ISTG STUPID HIGHSCHOOL GUYS OF MY SCHOOL DONT HAVE THAT TENDERNESS i knew he lives afar so i avoided all but i had a feeling he likes me so it was all over i came back to my city , crying FOR NO REASON THAT AN MUN ENDED i felt like i know him for years tho i was really avoidant to talk to him , i wrote poems like i did in 7 grade when i was so emotional and in love I don't know IM 18! I had this urge to follow him after a week i did and he accepted my request in a sec, i posted a story and he liked it (like I don't know if it is a big thing but he liked it in instant) he posted his award from MUN which i thought was on purpose but im falling hard for him we are not in same city plus he is young but I don't know wht is happening to me this feeling is so intense

I don't know if im acting weird or fantasizing?
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