I have this guy who I’ve known since ‘17. We started talking heavily in ‘18 but he distanced himself b/c he didn’t want a relationship. It hurt me to separate b/c we had a strong connection & could talk about our deepest, darkest secrets that I hadn’t been able to find in anyone else. He told me he felt the same way but still left. In ‘19, I got a boyfriend even tho I still missed him. I told him HBD a few months later & we talked & said how we missed each other & I found out he had a girlfriend too but he didn’t want to leave so we left things alone. In ‘20 we reconnected, I was single & he was taken but they’d gotten distant w/ each other, but he still wanted me to be all his without wanting to commit to me & drop his girlfriend. I got confused, & with me having a low self worth, I unknowingly became his sidepiece (not just sexually but emotionally too) on/off throughout that relationship to have his company. Ik ik, I cringe when i think about it. I backed away & got another boyfriend, but it was shortlived. In ‘21 we talked on/off but not as much. He was single & so was I but I was still not over my most recent ex so nothing happened. In early ‘22, we sat down & talked about a future between us. I said how all that we are looked for in other people, we both had & that’d make us perfect together plus us having this unbreakable connection. He said he could see himself with me in the future, it’s a possibility but he’s afraid he’ll mess it up & do something stupid to lose the friendship we have & so he needs to heal & so did i. We separated again until the last day of the ‘22, we reconnected. We both felt healed, not entirely but enough. We talked more, worked out together, & even watched movies on ft. He’s currently talking to another girl which started in late ‘22 & i’m letting him b/c if he wanted to be with me he would, right? Even tho he’s picked yet another girl over me, I can’t get over him or help but think if he’s saving me for later or just not interested?
Is he saving me for later or just not interested?
