It's maybe pathetic already, but something is stuck in my mind and I cannot get it out.
Me and my coworker have become really close. To the point we shared many personal secrets and details, we have become touchy-feely (he is giving me hugs, accidental touches) our phone calls lasted/last about 2-3 hours daily.
He made hints that he wants to ask me out, but never really did. Except maybe 3 times... we went out for lunch. I help him a lot. Even stay extra hours and I work on my days off. Everyone around thinks we are a couple or they are openly "shipping" us. He sometimes acts shy/bothered about it and sometimes he seems proud (never declines).
The problem is he is very hot and cold. For an example... he may talk for hours with me about his family and friends, and past relationships (explaining what went wrong) and the next day he acts like we are at a "hallo".
Sometimes I think I'm just an ego boost for him although he doesn't look and act like a coward in general. Everyone says he is a nice guy, caring, etc... But sometimes I think he enjoys my suffering. And a lot of times he makes jokes about "making me a baby", "taking me at home to clean his house". He is sarcastic at times with others so I'm afraid he does all of this bc he knows I like him and sort of is toying with me.
He said "nothing is what it seems" and "I don't know why you always think that I'm just joking with you"
We talk for hours then he says "again 3 hours of a conversation... nah won't repeat it again"... and I have said "if u don't want to talk to me for that long, then don't" and him replying "ohh, why are you just like that, if I didn't want to talk to you, I would not pick up the phone at all". Then he said sth like "you are the only women I have ever talked for so long or you are the only one I'm talking to right now" I could not hear it properly cause of a bad connection. Anyways... he even started asking for nudes and even gave me the idea of us having sex anytime soon.
I don't get it.
