He recently called me to tell me he’s in love with another woman and ultimately has no romantic feelings for me…. doesn’t want to continue wasting his time and that the woman he has now makes him want to be better person…. he’s treating her with respect, care, love ….. affection.
all those times he wouldn’t respond to my texts and calls he was with her and spending all his time with her….. he always seemed like he cared, and was passionate with me, he’d check up on me …my well being, called me beautiful all the time kissed me passionately and tried making time to see me which was not even equivalent to the time and energy he spent on her…… I loved him unconditionally I only saw him and although he was honest with me I never questioned his intentions because I’d never actually been treated nicely by guys until I met him….. although he never took me on dates, and held my hand in public, and only wanted to see me at his convenience….. I was ok with that because at least he wasn’t abusing me physically or using me for money…… I never felt like I was being used by him because of how gentle he was with me….
in the end he bluntly told me he has no romantic feelings for me and questioned why I didn’t think it was strange that he never talked to me often, took me on dates , brought me around his friends etc……. he told me he never loved me and that he assumed we were just fk buddies….. he kept expressing his love for the girl he's been hiding from me….. he loves her and not me and I feel dumb, not enough, unloved, played and like I want to die….. I’ve been drinking and even didn’t go to work……. all he can say is that he’s sorry and wishes me the best that I’m a gem and deserve to the happiness in the world….. why does he think it’s fair for him to be happy with another women after treating me like this? I never raised my voice to him, was always there for him, smiled to him even when my life was falling apart because I loved him….. I don’t even want to live anymore.
