Struggling With Sleep

[anon1903]

- SLEEP TAKE -

If any of you people are wondering why the hell have I stopped writing takes, its because the last couple of weeks have been really shitty and I'm not in a good place. Hence, this venting take. Don't care? Leave. Because this is gonna be one great emo share.

My first priority is... Sleeping. That, has been disrupted. Whenever I lie on bed, or anywhere, my feet get fucking cold and pain shoots up soles traveling further to my thighs. Nasty. Have been going through this shit for a month now.

Also, ridiculous amount of meds. And crappy doctors who write them. Money seems to be all that matters to them. I'm sorry if it upsets you as a medical practitioner. The darn physician could have fucking told my mom that I needed to see a specialist, the biochemical test could have included measure of everything — D, B, Ca whatevs... But no, the universe is working against me.

Anyway, I'm literally living on painkillers. I won't get an hour sleep if I don't take them. What a fucking nuisance! Not painkillers, the necessary task of eating before you take one. Can't I catch some good sleep without stuffing myself like a fucking teddy? Answer's no.

So my sleep schedule is really really really messed up. No shit Sherlock. Cramp wars are worst.

I would have approached the problem sooner if the stupid exams weren't up my my ass. Practicals — 101 harassment. No exaggeration.

I've been so, so aggressive lately. I think I'll stab everyone. But I can't. Laws are real. Oof. Except my brother, I hate everyone. That's not a news but I thought I'd just say it out loud. He often stays up late babying me. That fucking precious duckling.

People think I have depression. Either that or they are cranking my ass about eating disorders. My relationship with food is sure a weird one, but I have never taken lax, or worried about my weight, or vomited intentionally.

Did I tell you I lost weight? I fucking did. Comes with heavy dark circles, general state of fatigue, crying spells. But its all good. As for depression, I'm sure apathy is more like it but a-okay, aunt Stacy.

Nights are so freaking hard to pass. Especially in winter. Screw winter. We want summer! Summer! Summer! Give us it, people watcher / giant in the sky / you sadist.

I can't write poetry. Sucks so much. How else am I supposed to express myself?

Learn communication?!

No thank you!

...my body aches...

[t-8900]

I'm here for you for what it's worth. I've gone through similar things but instead of pain killers it was all antidepressants. Do they have Atkins bars in india? Or can you tolerate lactose? A lot of people dont know that a full serving of whole milk is enough to coat your stomach for taking pills. I hope this information helps you a bit. I'm really sorry you are going through this.

[anon1903]

Yes, I can try the milk

[t-8900]

yeah try it. Make sure its a full serving. Sip about half the glass down and then finish with the pills with the other half. like I said WHOLE milk. you need those fats to help with it.

[anon1903]

Yeah okay

[Tstrbrainer]

What's the reason behind the pain? Periods?

I've heard bananas could help with sleeplessness, but I'm not sure,, especially when it comes to pain.

Does feet massage work?

[anon1903]

Tried both. Doesn't work.

[Tstrbrainer]

I'm sorry. Hopefully you get it alright. Or try homeo or Ayurveda for a change

[anon1903]

Yes, last resort

[Assi2k]

Try meditation

https://youtu.be/vM5KwY3_8DE

[anon1903]

No thanks

[Assi2k]

So u have a problem but you reject the solution. Makes sense

[anon1903]

I don't mediate. That's all.

[WowwGirl]

Try herbal tea

[anon1903]

Tried

[Kaneki05]

Apathy can come from and be the depression. So that's like what came first the chicken or the egg situation.

Painkillers don't get you high, need to ask for meth or something the good shit. Then sleep would be easy!

[exitseven]

Sorry you are dealing with so much. I suffer with sleep apnea and use a CPAP machine. I rarely get a good night's sleep and if I have to wake up to pee in the middle of the night I am awake for the rest of the night. I cannot imagine what you are going through. I hope that eventually you get it all sorted out.

[Waldoe]

when it becomes unbearable, you will find strength... I'm 71, I went through a very similar period in my early 20's, suck like hell... I eventually got better, Hang in there... there is always hope.

[Tstrbrainer]

How does such pain occur?

[NathanDavis]

I gave up on sleep on my early 20's... and I focused on resting instead

[OlderAndWiser]

What can we do to help?

[TheBigGuy9]

How active are you? Smoke any Indica?

[anon1903]

No.. Im awake like 20hrs

[TheBigGuy9]

Try some Indica. It should put you to sleep, but 4 hours is actually the bare minimum amount that the human body can sleep and still function all day. I’d look at this as a blessing.