I've had bulimia for years now. Is it to late to for help?

[Anonx3]

I've had bulimia/occasionally been starving myself since I was 11 years old, and I am now 20 years old. Surpirsingly I've never been in a hospital or clinic for my eating disorder. I only had therapy once my family found out when I was 16, I lie my way out of it though, and having a jamaican family as always they sweep it under the rug. I've been eating normally for about 3 months and relapse only 3x in between. But last night I had a dream I binge ate, and ran to the bathroom purging and my boyfriend caught me doing it, but I didn't care and kept doing it. It was terrifying I'm trying to get better on my own with no help, cause I never want that to happen and I want to be healthy and better for myself. But lately it's been really hard, I don't know if its too much to handle on my own or is it too late for me to get help? cause no matter what I always end up going back to purging.

[Anonymous]

It's NEVER TOO LATE. Go get into therapy. It is a process. I've dealt with this too (anorexia not bulimia) and you can get better. You will you just need help. Seek therapy from therapists trained in dealing with eating disorders. Have your boyfriend and family help you.

[Anonx3]

It's nice to know I'm not alone, I don't know about getting my family or boyfriend involved but I will definitely consider getting therapy again.

[Anonx3]

thank you for commenting.

[Opinion Owner]

Good luck. I know it's hard to get others involved because in a way it is overwhelming, but when I reached out to family it helped me think of them and who it could be hurting and feeling accountable. I know this may sound undesirable because of any disordered thinking. But you will feel so much less alone. I also understand your family dynamic may be different or may not be the best help (I just don't know is all), but either way, a therapist will help you with the fears and feelings I promise. Good luck

[Anonx3]

Thank you so much, you're so kind! It is very very hard especially with my family, my family is dysfunctional and my parents are dramatic. So I rather not get them involve I may talk to my boyfriend more cause he understands me but I don't want him to worry. God this sucks. but I will figure it out, and hopefully get therapy or something soon. Thanks again. :)

[Invoker]

I just had to say. Catherine. Katherine. !!!

Its never too late to get help though. You already acknowledged the problem but it's time for drastic change. And support.

[Anonx3]

Lol, yeah catherine is my favorite game.

You're right though, I guess I am just scared kind of.

[Anonx3]

thanks for commenting.

[RationalMale]

You're still alive, it's not too late to see a therapist and get help.

[Anonx3]

That's true, but at the same time its not that simple.

[RationalMale]

Maybe not.

It is your choice to find a way to stop, or keep going and damaging yourself.

And it is that simple.