Help recovering anorexic (sorta)?

[weirdgirl0125]

I have had "anorexia" since I was five I am 14 in third grade I was wearing a size 2T shorts I've never really been good with food or my self but any way largely my boyfriend has been trying to help me (verry few people have noticed ) and I keep slipping back into it and I'm getting better at hiding it and that scares me I want get t better I don't really look it either I have curves and stuff I am 14 years old 5 ft 3 and about 106 ik that's a healthy weight and stuff but I need help on how to stop skipping meals and feel better about my self

continue till ur pretty stupiod bitch

stop gets some help

i could care less u do what u want

[godfatherfan]

I have been Bulimic Since 1987. I started recovery in 1999. I know a decent amount about anorexia even though Bulimia and Anorexia are very different disorders. when I was bottomed out in 1998 I started looking online for help. I found SWFED. com. that website saved my life. I urge you to, at the very least, get onto that website. Learn. Sign up for the forumns so you can post questions. Anorexia can kill you quicker then any other disorder.
I would urge you to talk with your parents. Although unlike bulimia, anorexia is much easier to spot and unless they are the type that do not pay any attention to you, it is something they should have caught by now.
You need to see a Eating Disorders therapist. They will recommend a Nutritionist as well.
This is the big picture stuff. Feel free to message me if you want to get more in depth about it.
very quickly it your organs start shutting down.
I sincerely hope you will get help and fast. Just because you made it this long does not mean something cannot happen quickly. And with women you risk damaging your insides which could also affect your ability to have children later in life.

I wish you all the luck. Please do not hesitate to message me. All those ticks your have, all those things you do that you think only you know about... those of us with ED's have done them all and know what your going through. You will find that out when You find a support group near your house. Usually at a local hospital.

[kheserthorpe]

Tell me what you think the point of eating is. Tell me what food represents. Tell me what you think optimal eating would be like.

[weirdgirl0125]

For myself or in general

[kheserthorpe]

if they're different, both :)

[weirdgirl0125]

To stay alive and for self indulgence as in like the taste for me I just do it sometimes around people to seem normal food for most people represents something good or tasty and a necessity but for me it represents some things my dad use to say before I left and things people say now and just fat and gaining weight normal people about 2,000 calories I try to eat about 400-500 calories a day and I go to the gym in the mornings everyday

[kheserthorpe]

Well, it's not just to stay alive. Calories are units of -energy-. It might be worth remembering that. You're eating energy. You need some energy just to live - to have your heart beat, your lungs pump, your brain work (your nervous system can use 1/3 of your calories! thinking takes energy). There's a level of eating that keeps you alive, but will leave you feeling sluggish, and less alert.

But of course if people consistently eat more than they need, they will gain fat, as their body stores it. And stores it. And stores it.

What did your dad used to say?

Why do you target 500 calories?

[weirdgirl0125]

A bunch of stuff like geez ur five and already fat, I brought u into this world I can take u out of u rant worth the space , etc because it's enough for me to have energy to seem normal

[kheserthorpe]

Your dad is a a psycho. I hope you;re not around him now. Being extra skinny will not make him treat you properly.

Your goal shouldn't be to seem normal. Your goal should be to -feel great-. You deserve it.

[weirdgirl0125]

I'm not but I still remember my punishments for eating and stuff so it's hard

[kheserthorpe]

I realize what I'm telling you, to really absorb it, is not -easy-. It's -simple- (as in not complicated). But it's not easy.

Just keep correcting 'bad' thoughts that are inaccurate, and telling yourself more accurate thoughts.

Food is energy. We need good healthy food to live. We need the right amount of good healthy food to be as strong and healthy as possible. Our bodies actually aren't made to get exactly the same calories every day - having the odd higher calorie day is probably -good- for us.

[weirdgirl0125]

I tend to do that a lot ill go several days wear I only eat one meal then ill eat two or three then back to one etc

[kheserthorpe]

Yes, the problem is you are going several days really low, then one day probably moderately low.

When I'm talking about the odd high day, I mean there are people with staggeringly low body fat who eat 5000+ calories once a week. It shocks their hormone levels up, essentially telling your body 'food is plentiful, stay lean and fast and energetic and don't worry about storing fat'

[weirdgirl0125]

Ok ill try that maybe

[kheserthorpe]

Mainly focus on recognizing food is your friend. It nourishes you. It gives you strength. It can give you pleasure. Some people abuse food. Guess what you're not one of them.

Eat the amount that maximizes your energy level.

[weirdgirl0125]

Ok thanks

[kheserthorpe]

Hope you're doing okay.

[lanternhill]

I don't know that much about anorexia (you should see a professional) but I do know something about self-image and health. I never believed people when they said I was pretty or beautiful and now almost without exception every time I look at old pictures I see what they saw. I wasn't as healthy as I wanted to be but I was still beautiful. It's taken me a while to accept truly *wanting* to be beautiful (long story involving emotional abuse) but once I did and once I started believing people, and feeling comfortable in my body, I was able to look at old photos without cringing.
It can be hard to learn to love yourself. But there's an Oscar Wilde (?) quote that says "Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." Learn to value your own opinion over strangers' and listen to those who love you.
Hope this helps!

[weirdgirl0125]

Thank u and ik the quote it's on my door

[lanternhill]

Oh really? And no problem!

[ThatWeirdOne]

Don't worry you will always be wonderful. Everyone is wonderful no matter what. You can fight this battle. If you can't fight for those how can't and those who did but failed. Fight hard! You have many people with you, family, friends, online and those that you don't know that are praying for you. Fight and keep fighting to win.
& when it is all over you will be able to say, "I won and nothing can stop me now!"
I wish you the best of luck!
From
Your secret best friend from another town ;)

[weirdgirl0125]

This is random but u seem really awesome lol

[ThatWeirdOne]

That is super adorable!
But Seriously if you need anything or just to even vent you can message me anytime! :D
I won't mind!

[weirdgirl0125]

Ok thanks

[Anonymous]

You need more help than from your boyfriend, let's be real here. Talk to your parents or have him help you do it. Or, say you feel sick and go to the doctors and talk to the doctor. They will help you. You could also go straight to therapy, which is great and maybe the easiest solution. I've had anorexia since I was a teen. I'm 30. It just sticks. I go in and out. Therapy is a must. Get past this. You can do it!

[itsalexandra]

Hey, Stay Strong ok? Try complimenting yourself once ever morning. Tell your boyfriend. It is harder to go through it alone. xo

[weirdgirl0125]

I didn't tell him but he noticed so he knows

[annijaeger]

I'm 17, 5'7 and am about 112 lbs so you're doing alright I guess. I had anorexia when I was 12-15 sort of. I don't mean to sound negative, but I think that if you've been anorexic, it takes a long time to fade out of the restrictive dieting and excessive exercise regime after you embed it in your brain that 'food is the enemy'. Since I was twelve, I've been embarrassed and insecure about my body and still am today.
Keep trying

[Megmilli]

There are programs where they help you, and they really help

[Anonymous]

I think you could possibly go to a theraphy and talk about your feelings and what to do. It got me through depression and eating disorder.

You should be proud of yourself, you are smart and strong. And your boyfriend sounds like a really nice guy.

[weirdgirl0125]

He is and I have anxiety and freak out when with therapists and stuff

[Opinion Owner]

It's natural but you should still try. You could ask your boyfriend or family member to come with you.

[madhatters4]

I'd find a therapist to talk to. really the best at getting to the root of the issue and then suggesting ways to work through it

[Error_204]

Where is the anorexia pamphlet? Does anyone have that image?

[weirdgirl0125]

? what?

[Error_204]

We have a pamphlet for this situation.

[weirdgirl0125]

Um ok

[Error_204]

Well, whatever, just go to the emergency room and tell them you don't eat properly anymore.

[weirdgirl0125]

Not allowed to

[Error_204]

That's interesting! I've never heard that one before.

[weirdgirl0125]

Also know one knows except for like three people

[Error_204]

Well what is the worst you've been underweight?

[weirdgirl0125]

In third grad I was about 30 -40 pounds and still wore toddlers clothes I was about 45 pounds in fifth then just started getting fatter even tho I wasn't eating

[Error_204]

But you're a healthy weight now... How long have you been a healthy weight?

[weirdgirl0125]

A few months

[Error_204]

Hm. Okay!

[BertMacklinFBI]

you have to continue trying.