I don't know what this is. I'm a bit concerned help?

So, I started probably a year and a half or two ago, when I got married. I was leaving with my mother before that, and went from skipping a day without showering to now taking 3 to 4 showers aday.
What really gets me is that I myself wasn't even aware of how this wasn't very normal, un till my husband mentioned it and asked why I take so many showers, almost every time he gets back from work I'm in the shower when I get up when I go to bed. I think it's gotten outta hand and it's really starting to worry me.
I feel very lonely every day even tho I have a family. I'm home alone most of the day tho. And at night everyone is sleep. I also have been sexual y abused multiple times as a child by different people, since I was 5 till just recently when I got married.
it is very stressful not being able to find the real cause of my weirdness or if it's all together. I feel like a weirdo like someone who isn't normal. I chew on my finger nails as well. I just want this to end and live a normal life. I had therapy for 2 years and it helped a bit but I have long ways to go. I don't know what to do, I'm so afraid.
I don't know what this is. I'm a bit concerned help?
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