I don't know what this is. I'm a bit concerned help?

[Anonymous]

So, I started probably a year and a half or two ago, when I got married. I was leaving with my mother before that, and went from skipping a day without showering to now taking 3 to 4 showers aday.
What really gets me is that I myself wasn't even aware of how this wasn't very normal, un till my husband mentioned it and asked why I take so many showers, almost every time he gets back from work I'm in the shower when I get up when I go to bed. I think it's gotten outta hand and it's really starting to worry me.
I feel very lonely every day even tho I have a family. I'm home alone most of the day tho. And at night everyone is sleep. I also have been sexual y abused multiple times as a child by different people, since I was 5 till just recently when I got married.
it is very stressful not being able to find the real cause of my weirdness or if it's all together. I feel like a weirdo like someone who isn't normal. I chew on my finger nails as well. I just want this to end and live a normal life. I had therapy for 2 years and it helped a bit but I have long ways to go. I don't know what to do, I'm so afraid.

[WritingStar101]

You'll be ok. We all have our weird quirks and there are times in life whatever reason that these quirks intensify, or new quirks come up out of nowhere. Its excellent that you are getting help for it. I know how therapy can be frustrating because the results are so few and far between, but unfortunately, its the most effective remedy. What helps me sometimes if talking. Just talking about my issues to everybody. May it be your kids or your husband or your family, whoever you feel comfortable talking with. This will be harder if you aren't used to letting people in, but trust me, it makes quite a big difference to just share how you are feeling. It lessens, if not takes away, that edge of loneliness and feeling of not belonging. Im certain you will get through this, its just a bad phase in life which when you are in, feels inevitable - but it isn't so, it does end. I hope everything works out. And never give up on therapy!

[Rahdle]

There's nothing to be afraid of. That's not all too uncommon. Especialy the chewing on your finger nails. It does not make you weird. You are different, but guess what, so is every other person in this world. Taking multiple showers every day is not strange or bad. It's just clean. Of you want to change that, just simply limit your showers down to like 2 a day. Everybody is "weird" in there own way. Trust me, I know. But you have nothing to worry about. If you want to feel normal, all you gotta do is accept yourself for who you are. The past is gone, you can't change it. So dont let it have power over you. you are perfect just the way god made you

[aficionado]

It looks like a more severe case of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). Not really harmful by itself, but do consider seeking professional help, just to get it out of the way.