Could I be bipolar?

[Bethany-Louise]

For a long long time now I've felt Bipolar. Like, you know when you feel mentally unwell?
I'm no good at life lol! I just can't do it!
I'm almost 20 and I just feel like I'm really not cut out to be at this age yet!
If I could start life all over again, knowing what I know now, I'd be fine haha.

I know those feelings are normal ^
But okay so 'symptoms' I feel I have are:

- Mood swings, mood swings, mood swings! It's either one extreme or the other ! I'll either feel so so 'depressed' that I just feel numb, and worthless, and those episodes can last for months at a time... Then I can feel unstoppable, like I'm destined for great things and that I'm gonna be just fine and lead this extravagant life haha.

- I've got really forgetful lately, I'm having to make lists on my phone for EVERYTHING.

- I can't control my spending.. Even when I'm overdrawn and I KNOW I can't spend anymore, I literally can't control it.

- I get REALLY passionate about things, I'll go out and decide 'this is what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life' buy a load of shit for it, then 1-2 days later lose ALL motivation and interest.

- I've cried so many times just walking round the street coming home from somewhere because I go back to feeling so crap again!

And when I get into the depressive state, it's literally so awful because when I'm around people it can seem like I'm absolutely okay, but wow if people saw me at my worst.. It's so bad !!

I don't know, I mean I know that everyone goes through everything I've mentioned.. I just feel something isn't quite right with me.

I know I need to go to a doctors but it's so hard to get them to see how I'm actually feeling without seeing me in that state, because when I'm describing it in person it sounds so trivial and like it's nothing.

What are your guys' thoughts?
Thanks!

[Anonymous]

If it's really bothering you, you should talk to your doctor or physician, but it could also just be that you've been in a bad mood, or there's something on your mind that you're trying to push away. Is there something that's making you feel sad or angry that you don't want to talk about? Have you faced any tough problems recently? Have you felt stressed out? You should go through questions like these before you jump to conclusions. Good luck though, I hope you feel better!

[Bethany-Louise]

Yes, yes, and yes haha!
But I've also felt like this when there's no stress factors involved, I'll have a chat with my doctor and hopefully he'll understand haha.

Thank you lovely!

[abundantlyrich]

I think a psychologist can help you out. If you are talking about pills... hmm...

[anonasaurus]

Do you have a boyfriend or someone close enough you (can) share all your feelings with? If not, it (might) be the reason for all the depression & mood swings. Sometimes people don't realize what they really want and interpret their emotions with things that are less relevant.

Even if this is not the case, try to share your feelings with someone you can trust, it will make things easier to go through and you will feel a lot better. :)

Good luck..

[Bethany-Louise]

Nah, no one seems to understand tbh.
I've got 2 of my girls who are my ROCKS. But I mainly like to keep it to myself because I hate being that person who dumps their problems on someone else haha.

Thank you :)

[anonasaurus]

I've had a few people who have shared their feelings & issues with me, but I didn't see it as they are dumping their problems on me, nor have I told them how to get over it. I just listened, and told them that it will be alright and I did things to lighten up their mood and take their mind off of those issues. You don't need someone to tell you how to get over your issues, because tbh no one can except you. You just need someone who will listen to you and will always be there for you. :)

Good luck!

[Bethany-Louise]

I'm the same haha, I wanna be a counsellor!
Thank you lovely :)

[TripleAce]

Yes I can safely say you possibly and most likely have bipolar (theres two types)

Have you been feeling like this since a young age, when did you start noticing these feelings?

[Bethany-Louise]

I went to the doctors about how bad I was feeling at 12 years old, and again at 14. Both times they said it was 'just a phase'

[TripleAce]

Well a lot of the times, it shouldn't happen, doctors may overlook it as something else and think it will pass.. Sometimes it does but if you felt you had it at a young age its possible its the type that starts off as bipolar and later turns into more of a clinical depression (keep a eye on that as you grow)

The root is also very important in effectively controlling and suppressing it, was there any type of traumatic event in your life or anything out of the ordinary, any other bi polar or depressed people in your family?

[Bethany-Louise]

Oh I didn't feel I had bipolar at a young age I just knew something wasn't right.
You're very clued up on this, are you bipolar? Or just into psychology haha?

There's been lots of things that have happened, and there's lots of resentment and things I can't let go off.
I know all of those are contributing factors.

There's been no history of bipolar in my family, and some family members have been on anti depressants but I'm not sure if it was clinical depression.

[TripleAce]

No I don't have anything, Just I'm somewhat pretty educated in this area, I worked closely with medical professional at one point in time and I dated a women in her late 20's that was clinical depressed, I also have oddly spoken to a lot of depressed/bi polar people in my life (just coincidence :/ lol)

Well antidepressants could be used for other things, but try and find out why they were taking them, that history could help you out and determine your own issues with more precision. Also the doctors will take you much more seriously if someone has had it in your family, but they should listen either way

Seems like your starting to get it, like your environmental triggers are whats triggers ups and downs but your probably susceptible to it, because you felt different at a young age, thats how it usually starts.

If you want, ill message you and give you something to work with? yes?

[Bethany-Louise]

Haha awww :)

Thank ou for advice, I really appreciate it!
Sure that'd be great :)

[Lebanese_Muscle]

You're unhappy with your life. You feel as if you could of done more with it at your age. You basically feel like a loser.

[Bethany-Louise]

It's not even so much my age, like I know I've fucked everything up so far, and made an absolute mess out of life.

It's just hard when you have everyone on your back, telling you what you already know and feel about yourself lol.

[Lebanese_Muscle]

So it is that? Dont worry at your age I felt the same way. Just get a job and go to school. Keep yourself busy. If you still live with your parents id assume? Just help them financially and that'll keep their mouth shut.

[Bethany-Louise]

I live in a shared house, I'm trying to look for a job right now and I can't afford to go back to school haha.

It just feel like something, instead of nothing. If that makes sence.

[Lebanese_Muscle]

Community college can be almost free. Try taking some courses that might catch your attention.

[shyguy227]

to save you time and hassle, i would reccomend you contact a qualified person who could help you in interpriting if you are or not.

[Anonymous]

nah you just need more good dick in your life

[Bethany-Louise]

Pfsh, they've probably contributed to me feeling so fucked up 😂

[Opinion Owner]

then switch it up and try out some sexy and willing girls.

[Kiwifun]

Are you going to share @anonymous

[Opinion Owner]

@kiwifun only if you want it.