I've been feeling really depressed lately I don't know what to do?

[Anonymous]

I have been feeling a decrease in energy, irritated more than usual, not finding anything fun anymore, sad/bored/lonely, not hungry and I have a lot of headaches. Sometimes I just want to sleep all day. I have a lot of friends and I always work out. But lately I feel like I'm worthless and that I'm ugly. I will never get close to perfect. I'm 5'2 and 120 lbs with a full C cup. I used to be a gym rat and now I feel like whatever I do I'll still be fat. Im still on my diet though. My relationships never work out and I'm always left or cheated on. I just gave up... I try to focus on school and work but I feel like I'm over working myself to avoid pain. My friends started questioning me because I'm usually a partier and very social. They say I should surround myself with friends when its making me feel more depressed. I just feel like they don't understand me anymore or aren't there for me as they were a year ago... Everybody tells me oh wow you are so pretty! Where's your boyfriend? Or they ask me if I have a boyfriend because it looks like I do. And I'm just tired I feel like everybody is speaking lies to me. I feel like the ugliest one among my friends since they are all happy and taken. I just don't know what to do anymore or who to talk to this about. I can't talk to my family I broke off all connections quite some years ago due to how they treated me. They were quite racist as well because they hated my taste in men (dating outside my race).

[bumbertyr]

sounds basically like my life.
Except for the relationship part, im a loner XD.

Self pity aside.
Best thing to do would be to consult friends or family, talk to teachers or maybe a phsyciatrist. There's also the possibility than you might be starting to suffer from BPD psychcentral.com/.../
Being stabbed in the back like it seems like your implying can be a huge cause of this state of mind.
if anything try to find someone you can vent too (I'm open for it just, pm me anytime yah want). Just make sure you find someone who will actually listen,

[Ryosanada]

I'm very sorry to hear that. Its the same with me. I've actually been so low that I've been ready to die. If you need someone to talk to I'm here fir you.

[jmmmfi]

So just go to a doctor then and. get put on meds

[bumbertyr]

That's one of the worst things you can do in a situation like this, getting put on antidepressants can get you hooked on medical drugs easily and can result on you basically living off of them.
It's better to have the emotional wounds heal over time, It's a much harder process but has a better outcome in the end.

[jmmmfi]

Okay doctor