Feeling really low and mentally tired, do I need professional help?

[Anonymous]

hey guys I'll try to make this as short as possible& thanks a lot in advance.

I live in India and I'm trying to make a career for myself, I'm giving a very prestigious compititive exam for civil services which has a ridiculously low acceptance rate. I've been at it for 4yrs now& I do see myself clearing it in 1-2yrs max. But I feel like my mind is unraveling.

1. I'm 27 now and I've been preparing since I was 23, I feel like I've lost the best years of my life in studying- I feel alone& I feel old.

2. I feel bipolar... very exicted one moment and very depressed the next.

3. I've got this obsessive anxiety that I've forgotten or incorrectly filled the details for name/ roll no./ or paper no. in the exam sheet and my exam sheet will be cancelled. I know it's totally unfounded but I ponder over it for hours a day.

4. I feel that I've become 2 people; a logical self and a obsessive self who has massive anxiety. I'm saying two poeple because I know what I'm thinking is wrong and stupid but I still think of it and I can't justify it.

Please help, if you've ever sought help, how was it and did pills help?

[xobrowneyedbeauty]

It sounds like you have a lot of anxiety. I understand how you feel (to an extent of course) and I can relate. I go to therapy and am on anti anxiety meds and it's slowly getting better. Get meds if you want but there's only so much they can do alone without therapy. Good luck. Please get help, anxiety is nothing unto be ashamed of