I genuinely hate myself for being fat and I see nothing wrong with it?

[Anonymous]

I'm 19 and have gained 100 lbs over the last 4 years. I recently learned that I have an eating disorder and it was a big factor as to how I gained it. I'm so ashamed of myself because I never thought I would be a person that's obese. I'm not proud about this and when I would try to lose weight and it didn't work or wouldn't lose it fast enough I was just go back to unhealthy ways which didn't work. Now that I'm obese, I genuinely hate myself. I am losing weight and have lost 40 lbs in 2 months and I have no plans of stopping. I'm so ashamed of how I look that I never leave the house. I don't want people to see how disgusting I look. It's hard because I isolate myself from everyone and I can't push myself to leave my house. I am hard on myself. I fat shame myself, write things on my arms (fat, ugly, etc.) so when I try to reach for food I'm reminded why I shouldn't eat, and workout 3 times a day everyday. I honestly won't love myself until I get this weight off and I know that the hatred I have for myself is not healthy. I know that my weight defines who I am. I just feel like there is nothing wrong with me doing this to myself because I deserve it but everyone says I shouldn't treat myself this way. What's wrong with it?

[takumii]

First and foremost, take some responsibility will ya? Nowadays everyone who is fat suddenly has an eating disorder. It is not a medical disability nor a liability, eating because of depression / stress, and the cowardly approach of fat people just claiming they have an 'eating disorder'
Take a God damn responsibility for your actions once in a while will ya? Adds to the credibility.. I at least think, okay, he is fat, but honest.

Once you admit that you are fat , and you are the sole reason for it, since you can become fat from skinny, it is possible to become skinny from fat. It's not as easy thng to do, but nor it is a big step. I am asking you to take a small step, and maintain it for 2 months. Change your ways, reduce (don't stop) your overhead food intake, exercise just 1 hour in a day (Cardio mostly) and you will see the results in 2 weeks. Once you see the results, see you are now less fatter than you were before. Decrease your overhead food intake some more, and exercise 1 hour a day (more intense this time), and so on.

[Asker]

This shows you did not read what I said. I did take responsibility for it. I obviously put the food in my mouth I know it's my fault. Now I eat healthy and workout 3 times a day everyday.

[Asker]

Also I was diagnosed with an eating disorder.

[AnonymGuy]

Don't, you will be loved for who you are.

Don't let this sex driven society insecure you, you're more then that.

You were created to be who you are, not to follow who you can't reach so you satisfy who dosen't appreciate you.

Live healthier for yourself, not for them, don't let it insecure you. Be the one change you wan't to see.

[Anonymous]

Hating yourself because of you being fat is wrong. Hating the fat in your body is fine especially that you use it as motivation in exercise. And for the record, hate is a strong negative act which I don't recommend in any way, I suggest you just dislike it, there's a difference.

[sean1234]

I admire women like yourself who tries to take good care of themselves. Sure you gained weight, but just think of how many others that don't care. You care, you lost 40lbs and in another 2 or 3 months you'll be back to your norm.

[Randomguy8182]

3 times a day every day is bloody stupid, u won't lose weight doing that for much longer, yea now u r losing it but wait a couple weeks u will just get ill