Am I the only one one who compares me to the kpop idols?

[Anonymous]

I brought uo kpop coz i like it and coz they are worth comparing..(girlsday).. mostly minah! I love her, she is soo special and I don't know how those girls are like that and i am just someone living like a puppet while getting controlled, anxiety and paronia.. thinking about girlsday, most especially minah, she makes me depressed.. coz look at them, look at her... her smile makes my heart on fire no joke! Especially when she cries, ill tear up.. she will be number 1 in my heart.. im taking this seriously... love... i love how they act foolish and funny.. i am 17 and i have facial hair, does that make me stupid and a kid for feeling that way? There like gifted. I always wanted to be something like that but im 17 now, no time.. i love you minah... i just have negative thoughts and surgical fear wich I don't know how it got in my mind.. all in my mind

[Yukoxchan]

I have a friend that is obsessed with kpop too (she's a girl), especially Chanyeol from EXO if you know this group. She says that it's her husband and that it's the perfect guy for her. But let's be serious, do you think that she has a chance with him? No way. Those kpop idols are working hard since they were kids to give us those great MVs with awesome voices and dance moves that we watch nowadays.
You might think that you fell in love with and that she is number 1 in your heart. But have you ever talked to her directly? Have you ever seen what she looks like or what her personality is like when there's no cameras? Probably not.
So try to go out and meet new girls, you might actually find the one with whom you will share the rest of your life.
It may be hard to forget her at first. But trust me, the best thing you can do is to not let an idol that you only see on TV ruin your life.
I hope I was helpful in some way :)

[Asker]

I gave her just an example... an example of a celebrity.. i aay this is serious when im am like mad.. but i take her as like well... interest and i can't explain... but i put kpop in this because people are having a blast with there life.. and im fked up... i can't do nothing.. and what u said... i was like teared up... coz u know its sad... i honestly do not know what emotion i have right now.. I don't know how im feeling.. im not obsessed... i just gave as an example.. although i do wanna visit japan and korea later on.. but just fkr the fun because i wasted 17 years of living filled with anxiety and everything and i truly never had a fun time inside... i am almost certain i will finish my 20s with this too... its like my life is extra... i dont love her.. i just smile when i see this certian group.. they are cute and so fun to watch... i can tell u that there childhood was like everyone elses.. but they made the most of it and had a passion from that age.. they are still yuong.. like 21 and 22 and 23..

[Asker]

Thats not old at all... this is too much.. il just say that its heartwarming to see there videos or something... I don't know what to say

[Asker]

And i think u understood wrong.. she's not ruining my life... the mental illnes is... the camparision of me and everyone else that i see daily who is having joy... thats what i was trying to say.. kpop was an example

[Yukoxchan]

Oh then I'm really sorry. If it's like this then I don't see where is the problem, I'm a kpop lover too and I enjoy watching their videos, it makes me smile and I want to visit japan and korea too.
But then what is the cause of those negative thoughts if it's not kpop?

[Asker]

Im not sure... its anxiety, paronia and deplression mixed... watching people having there dreams come true (example of girlsdsy) and im wasting all my life fighting this... im beginning my 17th year now... this is the age of growing and fun and everything... i can't explain.. but watching theae girls succeed is just amazing. and heartwarming...

[Yukoxchan]

I used to be that way too (and I'll be 18 in january) and I wouldn't call it "wasting your life" I used to hate myself because I couldn't have fun like the others because of being socially awkward and hated it looking at others and saying "why everyone is enjoying their life and having so much fun and I'm not?" .. But now I know that it was simply a way to becoming a much better person. In life, everything happens for a reason. You might hate how you are now but as time passes you will change believe me, and you will change to a great person without even noticing. All this anxiety and depression are in your head so don't let those feelings ruin your life. Go out more, see friends, and avoid staying alone. And I guarantee that you will be successful in life in your own way :)

[Asker]

I don't know about all that and i do not hate mt self... i actually try to life my self witch i do and works.. also i am learning japanese so i have japan and korea in mind in the future...(thats "if" i dont stay like this.) But with girlsday... lol thats differant.. i actually like how i get jealous and feeling love to them.. its warm :) lol although i hate everyone else.. i learned one thing and it is i do not waste my time in people and i just dont care much... but to remember i have paronia so iil feel horrible when i walk with everyone near.. its like the world is spying on u.. but in the weekdays.. i feel much confident coz i come back from school and im active.. but whatever.. i dont even know what im thinking.. also, you probably have the idea that i love Asian people,.. not only coz there cute (girls) but the Asian culture is really nice.. and have gotten in the (bullying) ... so i actually dont give a fk about anyone.. i am going to an Asian country in the future and fk the westerners and the people

[Asker]

In my countrt

[Yukoxchan]

Now I really don't get you. You say something then the next moment you say that it's not like that and that you don't have any problem like that. Just what is really the problem in the end? You like a kpop group it's fine, you are not depressed or anything it's fine, you are enjoying your life as you said it's fine. But where is the problem? You don't seem to have one from what you say.

[Asker]

I am anxious and paranoid and stuff.. but i try not to.. i try to stsy positive.. the reason im confusing is coz i have lots to say... the point of all this talking is that am mentally ill anf fked up at the same time... kpop was just an exampleq

[Yukoxchan]

You seem pretty fine to me because you are actually thinking in a positive way, you seem to have a nice personality so don't let those things bother you, it's not worth it. You are not as f* up as you think trust me x)

[Asker]

Lol.. i only have ankce personality when im home... loooool.. and de thats what illness is... im just typing.. i csn pretend to have a blast right now if u want..

[Yukoxchan]

Okay then I don't know anymore x) only trying to help.

[Asker]

Lol thanks for the help

[Yukoxchan]

You are welcome :)

[SirenDep]

They are famous, they have a crew of stylists to do their hair and makeup and pick their outfits, and their photos are photoshopped.

It's awesome to want to improve your appearance and do something good in your life. But try to focus on improving yourself, not trying to immitate others. Find what it is that makes you special, what you're good at. If you're 17, you probably still have another 60 years of life, so it's not too late.

[Asker]

Even if its not late.. il finish my teen life like that and its supposed to be the funnest.. and ik anout the photos and stuff.. but i meant the videos and were they are now.. it is beautiful, i dont care much about the plastic surgery... I don't know i just wrote this question just coz i want answers... i dont know what to write no more..

[SirenDep]

Those singers love their job and they are good at it. Find something you love and you're good at, and then learn everything about it.

[Asker]

I like drawing.. lol...

[SirenDep]

then work on that

[Asker]

Yea.. whatevrr... i like singing too.. i used to watch cartoons when i was like in grade 5 and 6 and i use to sing all day lol