Is this depression I have?

[Anonymous]

Long story short I've had a history of panic attacks since I was in about 6th grade. I was so bad for a few years I couldn't even step foot in a store without getting hot , dizzy , and having to leave. I'm doing much better now as far as that goes , but I've always had on and off periods of feeling " down " . More so here lately. It got significantly worse after I was raped by someone close to me, and had to leave school. Now , I'm homeschooled , and I feel isolated. My mom is great company but I don't have any friends. I used to be a very popular girl but none of those people are even " here for me " or talk to me now. I have like no friends. I stay inside most of the time because there's nothing to do around here. Same stores , restruants. This doesn't really have much to do with me being raped but it does affect me. ( it happen about 9 months ago ) . I'm just very stressed about my future as well. I have no motivation for college. I don't feel smart enough. I'm just tired of life in general. It's a struggle to even get out of bed everyday and I'd rather just stay in my bed to be honest. I feel like a 16 almost 17 year old girl my age should be more energized. And I honestly would have no problem not being here. ( I'm not suicidal ) . I'm just tired of my life.. And there's no reason for me to be.

[HitGirl_4680]

Missy I suggest you check out this website "dailystrength. org"

It helped me get through a lot of rough times. There are lots of different support groups that you can talk to like minded people and feel that you have friends, even if they are online and not sitting right next to you. They are so supportive and really caring and lovely people. They will listen to you and have suggestions because they too can relate to exactly what your going through and feeling.

Dont let this take over your life. Your mum is obviously wonderful and you love her, but you need people of your own age and interests in your life. You can't keep hiding away. Try and reach out and get your confidence and strength back.

xx take care of yourself lovely

[SensualScribe]

Sounds like a combination of depression and generalized anxiety, possibly a bit of agoraphobia. You should consider seeing a doctor, perhaps a counselor. Depression and anxiety is nothing to mess with. I am speaking from experience. I was too stubborn to admit that I needed help and things really spiraled out of control. I ended up gaining a ton of weight, quitting my job and barely leaving my house for almost five years until it got so bad that I ended up in the hospital with a life threatening infection. I met someone that helped me see that I was throwing my life away and changed my perspective. I will never go back to the way things were the way before. Don't let depression and anxiety control your life, please. Life is such a gift.

[Dim_121]

I know the feelings of depression and it is awful. I highly suggest talking to someone, a parent, a shrink, your teddy bear, God. While my circumstances were a lot different than yours it still was awful and talking out loud did help a lot. Being tired of life happens to most people these days it is just one of those things that happen. You have everything you want and you don't know how it can be any better. The days just drag on and on. Find a safe place that will allow you to be more social. Talking with other poeple in person alone should really help with your depression. Just be careful who you open up to when you decide to talk in a group.

[slimstiffy]

Hey.. Im sorry. Yoi have been through a lot. its good to hear that you still have this much energy. I know some people who have much smoother life and still feel this way. When you were popular you may have had a lot of people but these people tend to be fake. Its time you made some real friends. Such friends will be worth living for. For me at least, its they who give me most energy. Now you need to get out there. Not by yourself. You can have someone to keep you safe. For example your mom. Go out, meet kids who share your interests and stuff. You are young. You have a lot of time to make friends. Do not despair. Stay positive :-)

[msAlovescookies]

Feeling alone and isolated can affect you in many ways, I know. Even though I have friends, I'm not close with anyone enough to share secrets and my deepest concerns with them. I've been struggling with some sort of depression/anxiety issue on and off since high school (I'm in college now), and I've been seeing therapists now and then since my senior year of hs. What you went through is terrible and I understand that you may feel anxious about going back to school. However, if you want to prioritize socializing, I think it's definitely easier to make friends by going to school. have you considered going back if not starting at a new school? Maybe you should discuss this with your mother.

[TotallyAlmost]

Sounds like depression to me. Often linked with anxiety and panic. I'm terribly sorry to hear about the rape. I really think you should get counseling if you haven't already. That kind of experience needs to be resolved emotionally, or it will haunt you.

You're too young to be feeling and living this way. Commit to making a change. It won't happen over night, but you can do it.

[vonasaurus]

as someone who has both, it sounds more like anxiety than depression. that said, definitely bring it up with your doctor... and seeing a therapist can't hurt either.

stay safe,

-von

[OlderAndWiser]

Yes, it sounds like very typical symptoms of depression. Have you had any sexual assault counselling?

[Offthelist]

Dm me if u ever need to vent.

[KattFeesh]

This question is too long to answer

[SensualScribe]

Why even bother answering at all if you are not going to be helpful? Especially for a question like this...

[KattFeesh]

@SensualScribe to alert you to the weakness of your question

[SensualScribe]

Her question is not weak. She is looking for help. Sometimes some description is required and sometimes the person answering has to put a little effort in and do some reading.