Is that depression that I am suffering from, and If it is can anyone please give me advice?

[mxcix]

Do you ever feel that nothing is going to be enough to satisfy you?
I have been through a lot of messed up situations, starting from family problems, betrayal from best friends, insecurities about my short stature, and my girlfriend who couldn't accept me because of my short stature, I know feel like I am drowning, I can't take a deep breath, I have a weird pain in my chest area as if I am suffocating, I am very successful and yet I can't even enjoy my success, I feel like whatever success I achieve or whatever of everything that I gain, It will never be enough, I feel like I lost hope, If there is any advice you could give me I would be so thankful.

[ludorock]

Hey Mxcix, I hear you, we all hear you - and what you're going through is hard, and it sucks, and I'm so sorry that you have to deal with it. No one deserves to feel that way, and it is possibly one of the worst feelings in the world.

If you are able - as others have said - talk to a mental health professional, this kind of thing often gets worse before it gets better - if it gets better at all. Hell, even when you're on antidepressants you still can feel awful some days, it's just that most days are pretty good. The really tricky thing that no one tells you is that, even once that overwhelming, crushing, awful depression is gone, it's easy to still feel empty. So it's not just getting help, it's not just taking meds, it's also doing what you need to do to consciously find joy, be joying, be happy.

I am not a mental health professional, I am not a doctor. I am a chaplain, though, and I can tell you that I know the feeling you're feeling now, I've been there, and I've seen dozens of others. You're not alone. But you do need help of some kind, before it gets to be too late. Not necessarily meds, not necessarily hospitalization, but talking to someone. A trusted professional.

You are worth living for. You are valuable and incredible and we are all the lesser if you were not around. Even if it doesn't feel like it - you are loved by so many. It is impossible to believe so you don't need to, but just keep saying it over and over, even if it doesn't stick. Because it's true.

If you're not able to afford or find a mental health provider, there are tons of free resources for suicide and self-help. Meditation apps, anxiety apps, suicide hotlines and text lines and online chats with trained non-professionals, it's hard to take the first step and get better - your mind doesn't want you to get better because that's part of depression, is it wants to stick around and it will fight you every step of the way, don't let it win. Keep working hard. Know that we, and so many others are here for you.

[mxcix]

Can you please point me to one of online chats with non-professionals?
I am beginning to think that life just gets worse, I would be very grateful.

[ludorock]

This is one of them:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/

[mxcix]

not available in my area, and they offer just emotional support, I think I am going to need more than that, but thank you so much for trying to help, I am very grateful.

[ludorock]

Damn, I'm so sorry to hear that. I would do some research, just on google, about what options there are in your area. There are plenty of therapy alternatives because therapy can be very toxic and harmful for a lot of people. If you'd like more help message me and I'll see what I can help you find.

[mxcix]

I have sent you a private message.

[menina]

I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way. It's horrible. Yes, it sounds like you're going through depression. You should seek a therapist. I've been to one for 3 years and it really helped me. Stay strong, you'll be fine! :)
And I'm here if you need to talk.

[ChrisMaster69]

As @SecretsofKB says, I really would seek professional counselling.

You need to sit down with a professional and detail, list each thing you believe is an issue.

from the sound of it you are suffering anxiety / panic attacks.
depression is obviously there, it would be guessing about anything else.

first step, contact your doctor or local counselling centre and make an appointment.
They will assign you a counsellor and go from there.

On here people will suggest various stuff, however from what you put, you need a counsellor and people adding opinions is more of a way to cope and not tackle the real issues.

[ChrisMaster69]

@mxcix thank you for MHG most appreciated however thanks should also go @SecretsofKB

[mxcix]

Of course I thank her so much too and everyone who has tried to help.

[mxcix]

@SecretsofKB

[Anonymous]

Sounds like it's been easy for you to get a girlfriend for most of your life

[mxcix]

What do you mean?

[Opinion Owner]

Well you have a girlfriend at 22, sounds like you figured out how to attract women or get a girlfriend quite early in life

[mxcix]

Not at all, It's actually late.

[Opinion Owner]

What do you mean by that

[SecretsofKB]

My advice is to seek out a qualified mental health professional that you feel comfortable talking with. They will be able to help you way beyond what could be done here.

But maybe @chrismaster69 has some thoughts?

[ChrisMaster69]

@SecretsofKB thanks for tagging

[SecretsofKB]

@ChrisMaster69 No problem! This definitely isn't my area!

[Anonymous]

Daily affirmations.
And a change of attitude
Go to the gym... when we work out we recieve good chemicals makes us feel high and happy