These past 6 months some crazy really bad things happened to me (relationship trouble, death, depression and a lot of other things). I've been digging deep into spirituality this past month and have been meditating every night before bed so I've been doing pretty great lately
this morning I woke up in a great giddy mood went downstairs said hi to my dad then as soon as I stepped into the living room and asked my brother to turn down his music I was just hit with a wall of negativity and annoyance. He refused to turn down his music. It's not like the music was even that loud I just wanted to be in quiet for a few hours before I had to be at work. So I completely snapped I kicked my brother and just wouldn't stop beating on him till he agreed to turn down the music. I asked for 3 minutes of silence so I could watch a demo class session of a college and he said no. dad told me if I had such an issue with it to go somewhere else which really tipped me over the edge. I shoved my dad away and stormed off.
i recently just moved back into my parents so I don't even have my own room. Going to another room doesn't do anything. You can hear that music playing from anywhere and half the house has no electricity.
for some reason I'm still annoyed just the thought of having to see or even breathe the same air as them makes me really upset. I tried to sit back and think about where all the anger could of came from and I can't pin point it. I don't know if it's my body saying hey maybe you should just disconnect from everyone and take a time out or to talk to someone and have a deep conversation and get on a level. I don't know.
im at work now and I just keep having urges to have a complete tantrum. Which is stupid but I just want to get this negativity out by punching some walls and throwing things. I dont know why I feel so violent and negative like this. I don't know if it's from some meditation I've been doing or if it's from my dreams these past few weeks or from this weird energy in the house.
this morning I woke up in a great giddy mood went downstairs said hi to my dad then as soon as I stepped into the living room and asked my brother to turn down his music I was just hit with a wall of negativity and annoyance. He refused to turn down his music. It's not like the music was even that loud I just wanted to be in quiet for a few hours before I had to be at work. So I completely snapped I kicked my brother and just wouldn't stop beating on him till he agreed to turn down the music. I asked for 3 minutes of silence so I could watch a demo class session of a college and he said no. dad told me if I had such an issue with it to go somewhere else which really tipped me over the edge. I shoved my dad away and stormed off.
i recently just moved back into my parents so I don't even have my own room. Going to another room doesn't do anything. You can hear that music playing from anywhere and half the house has no electricity.
for some reason I'm still annoyed just the thought of having to see or even breathe the same air as them makes me really upset. I tried to sit back and think about where all the anger could of came from and I can't pin point it. I don't know if it's my body saying hey maybe you should just disconnect from everyone and take a time out or to talk to someone and have a deep conversation and get on a level. I don't know.
im at work now and I just keep having urges to have a complete tantrum. Which is stupid but I just want to get this negativity out by punching some walls and throwing things. I dont know why I feel so violent and negative like this. I don't know if it's from some meditation I've been doing or if it's from my dreams these past few weeks or from this weird energy in the house.
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