I feel empty inside?

[Anonymous]

I have depression and anxiety.. I have it under control with an antidepressant but my feelings of dying haven't really gone away... and every time someone disappoints me I feel like I should just off myself because I am completely alone, and have no one not even friends.
Is there something that can change this?

Updates

+1 y

Meh.. I just got offered a good job to make $78,000 a year so guess I'll keep chugging along. And stop whining... I'm always super lucky with opportunities... So I guess I did say I would pick money over love so I will just give up on love. Since love is what's destroying me as a person.

[FunkyMonkee]

Join the club, hun! I don't have anyone, either! I just have a number of writing and recording projects I want to get done and, along the way, I hope to find SOME way to leave my mark on the world. In a way, I already have. I helped write 5 books and did voice acting in a couple movies so, I have an IMDb page and I've made LOADS of people happy with the drumming I did in my band over the decades but, not very many people know of any of those accomplishments!! Most that do are now dead or, they just don't matter to them, anymore!!
I've not been very lucky at all in love OR money!! Or, much of anything else, for that matter!! Good luck in your new job!! I sure wish I could get one!!

[RockyHammock]

That's because you lack purpose and direction. There are many pursuits in life you just have to pick one

[Anonymous]

Your depression is not under control sorry if it was you wouldn't have those thought off ending things and you wouldn't feel empty. I think you need to speak with the person who prescribed the medication and see if you can have your antidepressants changed.

[OfMiceandMen]

My daughter has depression and anxiety and she feels the same way sometimes. I always told her, if you can't maintain a certain level of happiness in your life, then you should put off being in an relationship, as you can't always depend on someone else's happiness.

Congrats on the new job offer and it sounds like your level of happiness would increase.

[es20490446e]

Would you say that a person that is happy and cheerful is because they never experience such situations?

[Asker]

No but the feeling doesn't leave me... even when I'm having fun...

[es20490446e]

Would that feeling go away if you had no problem?

[Asker]

No... I don't really have any problems... life is just peachy... yet I don't want to be here

[es20490446e]

How long are you willing to stay like that?

[Asker]

Til I can end it without causing problems for anyone else...

[es20490446e]

Why not trying to fix it instead?

Or do you think that you can be no other thing that sad an miserable?

[Asker]

I don't know how to fix it..
Like even when Im happy its like Im faking it for everyone...

[es20490446e]

Would you say that being sad is something you shall never feel?

Not most of the time, but never.

[Asker]

No everyone gets sad...

[es20490446e]

Never?

[Asker]

Huh?

[es20490446e]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDvEBC-tVsQ

[Asker]

I don't blame others... so... not helpful... I have a chemical imbalance in my brain so how can this help me? You obviously do not understand what depression is LOL

[es20490446e]

Depression is learned helpless.
And learned helpless is attributing control to external factors.

[Asker]

Are you a doctor bruv? Didn't think so...
I'm not sad... I'm empty... do you know the difference? I feel nothing... I am numb... to all feelings... nothing is good, nothing is bad... do you get it? I doubt it...
It has nothing to do with what is going on in my life, my life is fine... I should be happy... but I feel nothing for anything... I am in college and I have a 4.0 gpa.. I get paid just to go to school $2000 a month and I don't owe it back when I'm finished... I have people who like me.. My parents love me. I should have a decent job when I finish this course... I live life... How am I helpless? I am not.. I just want to die..
Learn the difference... you don't know how to help so move along...

[Asker]

The only thing different is when someone disappoints me I feel more so like dying... but it doesn't change that even when things are fine I still wouldn't mind dying...

[es20490446e]

Okay, first we will agree on something.

If something isn't working it is not the right solution, no matter what you believe or if you understand why.

Aka if you believe that having a 4.0 GPA, getting paid $2000, or having loving parents must per se give happiness, and it doesn't, it necessarily means that you are wrong about what happiness is.

Things don't happen just because they happen, there is a cause. You believe, think, or do something that is making you miserable.

[Asker]

Yeah but I don't know what it is.. so... yeah... Im not miserable... I just don't have interest in anything...

[Djaay]

If you really Honestly want to get past all this misery... pm me. I happen to have an answer to a listener in need of inner help.

[gorydetails]

There's a lot that has to change it, but you have to be willing and want to change.

[Anonymous]

Aww i can't see you like this. 😘
Yeah chase money over love 😘❤️

[Anonymous]

Hey.. just to know.. you deleted Snapchat or removed me,?

[CAPTAIN-OBVIOUS]

Yes, hobbies and friends

[Asker]

Friends are too hard to make... lol
I have lost interest in literally everything...

[CAPTAIN-OBVIOUS]

Do you wanna message me

[Random_g]

Try religion

[Asker]

Tried that... that's one of the main reason's I'm not dead yet... Just cuz I don't want to forever burn in hell for killing myself lol

[Random_g]

Exactly.. the door for repentance are open even for a killer as long as he is alive.. But who commit suicide can never repent since the one he killed is himself