What was your darkest time?

[Anonymous]

What has been the darkest time in your life?

How did you get into it, and how did you get out of it?

[Anonymous]

I think for me the darkest time was when ex partner accidently became pregnant. We were using contraception but the sanitary product she was using disrupted it and caused it to fail. Long story short she wasn't ready and didn't want to keep it, I did but as a guy in this situation you literally have zero voice on the matter. Because I loved her I helped her get through the process, attended all the appointments and whatever needed to be done. She didn't want me to tell anyone because she felt ashamed by it so I kept it to myself and just focused on getting through it which pushed me into lonliness having to keep such a secret. It took about 4 weeks or so in total from start to finish and shortly after we got through it she left me. Only after that did I really feel my emotions, I'd been focused so long on being a stable source of comfort for her that I didn't let myself process what was actually happening but once she'd gone I felt so much loss and guilt for what I'd done, I lost my partner but worst of all I felt like I lost my child. I had so many dreams for weeks after about a young girl I felt was supposed to be my daughter that I often woke in tears. I can't say I ever really got over it but I just got on with life, it still upsets me if I think too much about it.

[Leapfrog00]

It's kind of a dark story. Last year, I was diagnosed with diabetes and broke my foot in 3 places a month later, and then became homeless. I couldn't work, I couldn't support myself. My aunt, who was a narcissist, cause so many problems and it wasn't safe for me there anymore, so I ended up sleeping in boxes on the street for 9 or 10 months. She and her cousin sold everything I owned. All I have left is this laptop and a few clothes.

I needed an operation on my foot because the bone fragments caused additional problems, and then it wouldn't heal because of the diabetes. Homelessness wasn't completely horrible. I mean, I didn't care about anything, and I still don't. It made me not give a shit and stop worrying about everything.

People think it can't happen to them. All it takes is for a person to come down with an illness one day and not be able to work any longer. I have no family or friends either, so that kind of made it more difficult.

[Anonymous]

Three years ago. Thankfully, I was never suicidal, but I was really low. Ultimately, I was diagnosed with MDD and was put on antidepressants. Not too long after the diagnosis, I decided to *Baker Act myself. I desperately needed help. After staying the 72 hours, I was released and continued my medication and therapy. Now, I am in a much better place. 😌


(*For those of you not in the USA, when someone Baker Acts themselves, that means they voluntarily check themselves into a mental institution for 72 hours for observation. During that time, the hospital’s psychiatrist ascertains their problem and prescribes the appropriate medication and treatment. After the 72 hour period, the person continues their treatment via medication and/or therapy).

[MemeSupreme]

not one of those nights i can answer this, so just read that. it's anonymous post i made when i was 15 during a very shitty night of my life

What should I do?

[Blueeyes81]

Alcoholism. By 30 I could no longer function. I got there by partying hard from the age of 15 and using alcohol to hide from problems rather than deal with them. I checked myself into rehab at 30 and was sober for 2.5 years. Women problems gave me an excuse to start drinking again and it got bad. In early 2014 I read Alan Carrs-the easy way to stop drinking and have been sober since. That was my darkest time.

[Asker]

I didn't think a book could stop drinking. What about it helped?

[Blueeyes81]

It changed the way I looked at alcohol. After reading it I no longer felt it was something I was missing out on or being deprived off. The book is often referred to as "the common sense approach to quitting drinking". I was skeptical but it kept popping up on online forums about alcohol abuse. People couldn't sing its praises enough. So I tried it and haven't had the desire to drink since.

[Asker]

Nice I am happy it has worked for you.

I have my own issues that haunt me. Trauma from when I was younger. I have overcome the PTSD and Anxiety disorder, but still feel anguish and think about it frequently. Sometimes I get nightmares. Unfortunately, I have not been able to rid them out of my life completely. One day hopefully.

[AaronKrieger]

I'm not going into details, but you need correct the habits in your life to be happier. It sounds like some bullshit you'd read on google, but it's the truth. Our habits impact our mental health so much more than you'd think.

It's apart of why I haven't experienced a depression in over a year and I've mentally been a lot better than prior years.

[Anonymous]

Sunk into a deep depression after I was raped.

[Asker]

I am sorry. Is it ok to ask what age and how it happened? Was the perpetrator punished?

Have you been able to heal? What advice would you give someone who is in the dark?

[Opinion Owner]

It was a guy that stalked me when I was 18, he would follow me everywhere and one night he broke into my apartment and put a knife to my throat. I thought the guy was harmless, how wrong I was.

I am healed now, but it took a lot of therapy. My only advice is, don't trust men till you have had time to know them inside and out.

[Anonymous]

When I checked myself into a mental health facility. I felt like I was losing my mind with the voices I was hearing. Made me suicidal. Turns out I have schizophrenia. I'm better now with the medicine I'm taking but that was one hell of a time.