Looking terrible because of smoking?

Anonymous
I’m 21F, i’ve been smoking since 4 years. The two first years I was a heavy smoker, i’d smoke maybe 10 or more joints a day. From where I am we mix hasch with cigarettes, so I ended addicted to nicotine too. The years after I was smoking really lesser, like sometimes of course I had bad days and smoked a lot but usually it’s around 2 - 3 times a day ideally but sometimes 4 if I stayed home bored all day. But this year especially I noticed that I started looking terrible, my skin got darker and my skin tone isn’t homogeneous anymore, my smile is starting to lose his white, my dark circles are bad, my gums are blue my lips are blue and i lost 15 kg since I started smoking that I can’t get back no matter how much i eat. ( sorry for all the details, it was also to discourage anyone who would start smoking, like it’s really a bad idea ) I started smoking hasch just to feel better but now I struggle to live without it, even tho it makes me look terrible and also I almost doesn’t feel good anymore after smoking, like I just like the feeling when I’m smoking it but after I just feel anxious / paranoid and can’t even go out or my brain would convince me everyone and everything is going to harm me.
Anyways … !! I talk too much sorry
But what I wanted to say, is that I was trying to reduce it these last two weeks in 1 - 2 joints a day but I still don’t see any change in my face. my lips are darker than ever and my gums too. I miss my baby pink gums like I never thought that would be what I miss the most. But it’s just looks so healthy and attractive, me I feel like I look dirty I don't know how my boyfriend does to not be disgusted tbh ( he smokes too but still have his lips and gums too )
So yeah : here is my question sorry it took long :
Can I ever see a change while continuing to smoke only a joint a day? Or would I have to stop totally to see a difference on my face and weight?
even tho I don’t think I can totally stop now..
Thank u, x
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5 mo
i wanted to say for my boyfriend part that he still have them pink *
Looking terrible because of smoking?
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