Addicted to cutting

[Anonymous]

it just feels so much better when I cut. I feel so much calmer and nothing matters. the pain hurts... but it also feels so good.

I've also noticed that during anything sexual I like hair pulling not just little tugs but like... make it hurt or it doesn't feel any good. I like scratching done to me but id return the favor and biting

i wanna wake up and see the evidence

the more painful the more I just melt

why do I like being hurt so much? I don't really have anyone I can talk to and feel okay about it

[hawthorn21]

Endorphins.

Google's definition: endorphin - A group of chemicals produced in the brain that reduce pain and improve mood.

That's why you like the feeling. Not sure I can speak for why you like the marks. For me, I like scars and bruises because I feel like they tell a story or mark an event. I also kind of like treating my injuries and watching them heal. Sometimes it bothers me that I've never broken a bone because it makes me feel like I've never lived (though I've heard it is incredibily painful and I should be grateful). I know that's not true though, just sometimes..

You really should stop cutting though. It may feel good, but one day it could be too deep or the wound could become infected. I won't say anymore though because you can truly only stop if you have a desire to. If you do though, you should talk to someone. It's not something easily done on your own. I hope that helped.

[Asker]

I think I need to stop every time but last night I really screwed myself up and I'm not going to do it again I went too far

[hawthorn21]

It's easier said than done, but I wish you the best and hope you are right. Just remember why you decided to stop, next time you're tempted. I'm not trying to discourage you, I just want you to realize you aren't necessarily "out of the woods". I'm confident you can stop, it's just a matter of whether you will get it right the first time or not. I still reccomend talking to someone, and you need to find better releases (like exercise, that can be painful). Really, good luck. :)

[katiegal]

My advise,work out!Sport is the key to everything,jogging,dance,swimming,clears ur head and makes you feel better.Belive me.Cutting is a thing you do as you are missing something in ur life,a strong feeling or smthg.In my poinion.and sport gives you endorphins yup,and its healthy/! You can also ask for professional help ...as cutting is a menthal desease,or the beginning of it.