What should/can I do?

[Anonymous]

Long story short. I am a single mom. I have 4 kids by the same man who is serving a 20 year prison term wich only started 3 years ago. That means I get no child support EVER. I work so I depend on my 13 & 14 year olds to watch my 9&7 year olds. I have no family. NO mom, dad aunts, unlces, brothers grandparents. My sisters are younger than me and unstable drug addicts. My two oldest boys are completley driving me insane. They won't clean. They are both suspended from school for the rest of the school year. all they do is fight. It is only a matter of time before the neighbors call child services on me over my oldest two not keeping my 7 year old in the yard while I'm at work. I have tired counceling. I have them in a program for kids with a parent in prison where they have a mentor and it isn't helping. I am tempted to go home today and drop them off at child protective services and tell them since I can't beat thier ass you can have them. I can't take it anymore. I honestly hate my life and want to die because of them. I know it sounds horrible but I am seriously sick of them two.

[learningthegame16]

It sounds like your oldest boys need some structure and time to be kids (to be honest, you're asking a lot of them to be babysitters and housekeepers. They're meant to be kids not parenting other kids).

Why not look into putting them into some sort of after school program or even encourage them to get a job? You'd be surprised what sort of programs are out there.

With your youngest kids, why not see if the parents of one of their friends can look after them after school while your working, you could even work out an alternating system where you look after other children when you're free just so it evens out.

You may hate your life, but it's up to you to change it. It was your choice to have children and if you want to be a good parent, you have to do the best that you can for them so they don't end up in prison or worse.

[Anonymous]

If you want to die, then you're not going to experience the wonderful things this life has to offer.

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Try a local church. See if they can put you in touch with a local charity or provide some help.